miracles do happen

week 8 so fast?!

2007-02-22T20:45:00.000+08:00

yeah it's week 8 already. so fast lah. tsk.

had chem lecture test today. what the tomato. quite hard leh. but it was fun to attempt. and now i know i should probably strike off all careers involving chem from my list. if i pass, it's a miracle, seriously. i get 3 out of 25, i'll be very happy already. seriously it's that bad. ><

got back physics too. surprisingly did quite well. very surprisingly, considering the kind of phy noob i am. which is why i'm still going for phy remedial tomorrow, cause my phy sucks.

okay tomorrow is a friday. and my interview's next tue. i'm seriously very scared. >< but the 2 interview ics are very nice, so i hope it'll be okay. haha.

i think i'm running on a short fuse today. ><

workworkwork

2007-02-14T21:14:00.000+08:00

haha firstly, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYONE!

work is starting to come in. chem class test & lecture test, math lecture test, phy class test & lecture test etc. goodness. rjc teachers are crazy. the chem paper was crazy lah, what the tomato ><

anyway today was vday! haha so sad i didn't get anything from any guys, now everyone say awwwww. haha mel and i were pseudo-emoing about it. so funny lah. ode's more popular than us!!!!! and now i have a kiss from mel on my cheek drawn using her lipliner (ew it touched her lips, now then i realise. ><) a <3 note from ode on my right hand (but it's faded) and a BIG 'eileen owns my heart' on my left arm. it's super big lah. >< crazy eileen ho

i'm quite scared about council. i don't wanna get my hopes up in case i fail (which is most likely the case, considering the competition), but yet i don't wanna give up this opportunity. shall leave it in God's hands. (:

ah tomorrow the biantai phy test and math test. shuhoosh say if i don't die after phy then i'm a genius. omt it's that bad?! O.o die already. math i heard was quite easy, but considering my brain's current functioning ability (or lack of it) i probably will screw it up badly. ><

alright vday is over. no more lovey dovey stuff, though that irritating shuhoosh LOST my present and abused my present to her. >< remind me never to give stuff to her again. xD

roses are red, violet are blue, but none is as sweet as my love for you (?!)

if you didn't understand that, be thankful.

hilarious stuff

2007-02-11T17:50:00.000+08:00

say this in some random person's blog. it's VERY funny!!!!!

Every year, English teachers from across the country can submit their
collections of actual analogies and metaphors found in High School
essays. These excerpts are published each year to the amusement of
teachers across the country. Here are last year's winners

1. Her face was a perfect oval, like a circle that had
its two sides gently compressed by a Thigh Master.

2. His thoughts tumbled in his head, making and
breaking alliances like underpants in a dryer without Cling Free.
3. He spoke with the wisdom that can only come from
experience, like a guy who went blind because he looked at a solar
eclipse without one of those boxes with a pinhole in it and now goes around the
country speaking at high schools about the dangers of looking at a solar eclipse without
one of those boxes with a pinhole in it.
4. She grew on him like a colony of E. Coli, and he was room-temperature Canadian beef.
5. She had a deep, throaty, genuine laugh, like that sound a dog makes just before it throws up.
6. Her vocabulary was as bad as, like, whatever.
7. He was as tall as a six-foot, three-inch tree.
8. The revelation that his marriage of 30 years had disintegrated because of his wife's infidelity came as a rude shock, like a surcharge at a formerly surcharge-free ATM machine.
9. The little boat gently drifted across the pond exactly the way a bowling ball wouldn't.
10. McBride fell 12 stories, hitting the pavement like a Hefty bag filled with vegetable soup.
11. From the attic came an unearthly howl. The whole scene had an eerie, surreal quality, like when you're on vacation in another city and Jeopardy comes on at 7:00 p.m. instead of 7:30.
12. Her hair glistened in the rain like a nose hair after a sneeze.
13. The hailstones leaped from the pavement, just like maggots when you fry them in hot grease.
14. Long separated by cruel fate, the star-crossed lovers raced across the grassy field toward each other like two freight trains, one having left Cleveland at 6:36 p.m. traveling at 55 mph, the other from Topeka at 4:19 p.m. at a speed of 35 mph.
15. They lived in a typical suburban neighborhood with picket fences that resembled Nancy Kerrigan's teeth.
16. John and Mary had never met. They were like two hummingbirds who had
also never met.
17. He fell for her like his heart was a mob informant, and she was the East River.
18. Even in his last years, Granddad had a mind like a steel trap, only one that had been left out so long, it had rusted shut.
19. Shots rang out, as shots are wont to do.
20. The plan was simple, like my brother-in-law Phil. But unlike Phil, this plan just might work.
21. The young fighter had a hungry look, the kind you get from not eating for a while.
22. He was as lame as a duck. Not the metaphorical lame duck, either, but a real duck that was actually lame, maybe from stepping on a land mine or something.
23. The ballerina rose gracefully en Pointe and extended one slender leg behind her, like a dog at a fire hydrant.
24. It was an American tradition, like fathers chasing kids around with power tools.
25. He was deeply in love. When she spoke, he thought he heard bells, as if she were a garbage truck backing up.

boo

2007-02-11T16:45:00.000+08:00

o level results are out. don't ask. but i'm glad that most of the people i know did quite well. congrats to the so-sexies and amigos and excons! xDDD

certain people irritate me, seriously. they think they don't, but they do. and it's not just me, it's like everyone. oh what the tomato, love your enemies.

did i mention that tomato is the new in word? start every sentence with t! cause t stands for tomato and something else xD tomg!

gosh it's like feb already. you! you reading this! have you gotten my valentine present? xD must get k. and i have to get presents for like everyone too. sigh. xD

my mum is screaming again. sigh. the house is damn noisy all the time.

tokay next week got 2 talks and 2 lecture tests. good job. gragh.

oh and i just got the first issue of the economist! it's actually quite interesting, but maybe it's cause i'm so out of touch with the world that everything that's happening is interesting to me lah.

okay time to go slack or something. i need to buy correction tape and foolscap, and write my angel a letter. tbyes teveryone.

busy weekend!

2007-02-04T21:02:00.000+08:00

ahaha this weekend has been busy and tiring but extremely amusing.

first up, flag day. we reached tanjong pagar mrt at about 8am, then waited till like 8.30 before going up to look for the people, then they told us to go eat breakfast first cause the cans were gonna be late, so we did and returned at 10am, and by then the cans were STILL not here, so we waited and waited and waited some more till about 10.45? and then we just did till 1pm.

now for interesting stories. junie and i stationed ourselves opposite the road from kianpeng and kelvin, and after a while they felt that they had no business so kianpeng came to our side of the road to steal business. so it became the 3 of us on one corridor, with me stationed in the middle. so after a while, we met up to go back and it was found that i still collected more than kianpeng and the same as junie, so kianpeng got owned.

and it seems that there was this woman whom kianpeng approached and she daoed him, then i approached her immediately after that and she donated xD after that we went to eat some stuff and changed location. met kelvin aaron and yanxiang there and then the whole lot of us went together. this time yanxiang and aaron approached this woman walking and she rejected them, then i approached her immediately after that and she donated. super funny lah, then the guys were complaining that the people were biased toward girls xD

winners of the day: junie and me!

after flag day was jazz. the teacher totally rocks lah, she's super funny. most of the lesson was spent on technical stuff but we did a dance at the end of it which was super fun! my official favorite now is street jazz xD

after that feng, joeyee, winnie, michael and me cabbed to church, them for chi tuanqi and me for reach service! reach was good, met many new people and i think the message was quite clear. xD dinnered with vanvan, lielie and shiwei aka kaelyn the tsewols. she's really amusing.

anyway i realised my descriptions are getting shorter and vague-er, for the lack of a better word ><

today. had combined service, then lunched with some jammers and excons, then went to the library to TRY to do some work. in the end i spent an hour on the phone with shuhoosh and the rest of the time laughing or screaming at caleb. talk about a quiet library.

after the unfruitful mugging session, we walked to church for jttw video screening. it's seriously amusing, and to see all the jttw people again was great! it seemed so normal and nostalgic for raj to be talking ~~rubbish~~ in front of the group again. missed the people to bits.

had dinner, then talked a bit with some of the people. liang isaac terry and gang are really sick in the head. and lame, of course. spent the time laughing, eating and talking rubbish.

overall i had a great time. now it's back to school! xDDD

school!

2007-02-01T21:17:00.000+08:00

ugh i'm super tired lah. don't know why. tomorrow i'll die! 3 lectures, followed by 1 tutorial, then break, then 1 tutorial, then phy lab! must make sure i have lots of sweets stocked up.

on a brighter note, tomorrow we can start making the phy car! wheee how fun! andandand i finally finished letters to my mortal and angel. sorry for being super late!

muahaha and valentine's around the corner! haha rj judo set up this anonymous gift thing, super funny lah! hmmm maybe i should send mommy or daddy something anonymously xD

oh no tomorrow got piano lesson again. sigh. to be really random, i shall learn how to play yi qian nian yi hou. i know it's quite an old song and the singing sounds really weird and constipated, but the song itself is nice. xD

leecheekeong is <3, i miss leecheekeong! maybe we should have a class party in tekong to visit him. xD

class party! among other things

2007-01-27T22:13:00.000+08:00

ah so much has happened. had a farewell party for nat yesterday at heeren nydc and almost the whole class turned up, except for a few. even ms lee and meilyn came! haha spent a bomb on the food there but everyone had quite a lot of fun even though it was so noisy half the time we had to shout to be heard.

after the party mel and i stayed back to walk around and talk about our new lives. haha i just realised i haven't talked to my mummy in a very long time. been so busy with my new life that i'm neglecting old friends. nooooooooo!!!!! ): anyway we talked and talked and talked till about 11 plus and i caught the very late train home and nearly overslept ><

today had befrienders lunch and the phy (again). befrienders lunch was quite fun lah. good food yummy and a new plan for the new year! now that bell mentioned it, ywav really has a changed a lot. for the better. hope it continues to change to even better.

phy at joseph's house. haha before that lizheng shuhoosh and i were joking about how big his house was that we'll get lost in it. haha anyway in reality it wasn't that scary. but we didn't do as much work as we did on thurs. in the end we decided to change the wheels so we're meeting tomorrow at my house to do. and shuhoosh and i can't go for class outing!!!!! ))))):

anyway okay this post is like the longest since don't know when. i'm tired. i shall sleep. good night.

mugger-wannabe!

2007-01-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

I SHALL BE A MUGGER I DON'T CARE. rjc is a hardcore school. hardcore at studies, sports, ccas, everything! crap lah. super scary.

did i mention my phy group comprises 4 very pro people? lizheng-the-3.96, joseph-the-3.92-or-somewhere-close, pak-the-malaysian-scholar-who-is-very-pro-too, and finally, elizabeth and me. two times of a bit cannot make it equals one pro. ><

yes we shall win the $300.

to be totally random, my legs hurt like crazy. must be the 7 plus hours of frisbee and 9 hours of sleep in 2 days. plus the hardcore pe! oh my goodness the pe teachers in rjc are nuts lah. circuits for one hour, then the next day run 7 rounds, do some jumps (SOME, HAH!) and then squats. goodness. now ally wenting and me can't walk without either whining or limping. ><

homework. yesyesyes. i shall finish my homework. be a mugger, that's my name!

i <3 my class!!!!!

2007-01-19T20:25:00.000+08:00

w00ts i totally love my class. 08S06C! we have a totally rocking timetable, totally cool teachers, and the people are super funky! thank God the class rocks, if not jc will be a torturous experience.

poor shuhoosh the clumsy tore a ligament while playing captain's ball. the funny thing is, she jumped, landed, and tore a ligament, and nobody even touched her. poor thing. now she hops around in her crutches and the quite gentlemanly guys in our class carry her bag (and sometimes mine too, if they're nice enough)

lectures rock. i don't know why but i love them. and i just think our class totally rocks. i know i have a limited vocabulary, but whatever to you. i've lost touch with my cheem-ness cultivated in rgs.

on a not-so-happy note, i screwed up players auditions, like totally. it'll be a miracle if i can get in lah. but nvm it's all in God's plan and i shall trust that whatever happens will be for the best.

goodness i haven't seen my class for like 5 hours and i miss them already. what is this. ><

post-orientation

2007-01-10T20:55:00.000+08:00

hi i'm back! with a fever, phlegm and runny nose! yes the aftereffects of L'audeamus.

lectures have started. oh man feesicks is damn boring. the lecturer sucks. but my civics cum physics tutor is quite nice, though his photographic skills aren't erm exactly that great. anyway. i think i still prefer amigos to S06C. no offence, but amigos people more fun. xD

tomorrow double econs. someone please stab me.

random note: someone's leaving, and i feel damn sad. damn. -slaps self. alright better. i shall not think about it.

anyway did i mention i joined 6 ccas today? raffles players, recas (raffles economic and current affairs society, please don't kill me), harp ensemble (stop laughing), volleyball (laugh some more and your teeth will drop), rated (artistic) magazine and wushu (pink silk costumes are so PREDDDAY!) xD

ugh my pear soup is turning into pear syrup. alright bye people. try not to miss me too much. it's hard, i know xD

i hope you dance

2007-01-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

haha this blog is so dead i shall revive it! sort of.

orientation was fun! amigos you're so fine! haha and my class is 08SO6C! according to my ogl it's SO SEXAY! think punnish. haha anyway. orientation ends on monday. crap lah. i don't wanna start lessons! but our form teacher is quite nice. he's quite funny.

alright i'm too tired to think of any interesting details to blog about. except our ogls are damn cool. and funny, in a weird(?) way. haha oh wells bye people

btw i hope you dance is a damn nice song.

jesus take the wheel

2006-12-17T21:50:00.000+08:00

MAJOR WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS!!!!! i miss the musical like crazy. i miss EVERYONE, from dancers to choir to backstage crew to food-providers! it's hard to believe it's over. i think i even miss gerrard, impossible as that seems.

the musical was great. i think we all felt God's presence even before the concert. when warm-up was conducted and we all just danced from our hearts to whatever music was played, i think that was the scene that touched me the most, for that day at least. the audience was great, and we danced our best for God, so it was a great day one.

day two started off a little shaky cause gerrard and mingmei laoshi were both sick. then jeanell fell sick as well. but since it was our last day together, we all gave our all despite the exhaustion. during warm-up (again) we did the bridge thing where everyone had to form two rows facing each other and one by one we walked down the aisle in the middle with our eyes closed and everyone whispered something into our ears. it was really touching, and by the end of it i had tears in my eyes.

so anyway we did our best again for the concert that night, and after it ended everyone just went around crying and hugging everyone else. this concert is definitely going overseas, and we wouldn't miss it for the world.

after this concert i've gotten to know a lot more people from sbc, acjc, and even the chinese congregation. it really amazes me how so many people (more than 100) can come together as the body of Christ and just sing, dance, do whatever we could to glorify Him. before the shows we (we happened to be the only dancers room downstairs with the choir, the other dancers were all upstairs) just sat at the corridor playing, taking photos and hilarious videos, singing, dancing and going crazy.

anyway i just wanted to say that this was a great experience and it'll stay with me for the rest of my life. to all the cast and crew (if you ever read this), thank you so very much for making this journey unforgettable. God bless you all.

most importantly, to the One up there, thank you for making this possible, and for loving us more than anything else.

the philosophy of the national treasure

2006-12-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

yo i'm back after not blogging for like a million dinosaur years! lots has happened, the holidays are more than half gone.

coming up: jesus take the wheel musical, christmas switch concert, SCHOOL REOPENING!!! -gasp

anyway today was the casting crowns concert. damn good. for those who didn't go, you missed out! i just realised there's a big difference between the songs they sing and hillsongs. their songs are more thought-provoking, hillsong songs are more worship-ful. cool eh? xD

speaking of worship. playing tomorrow. trying to pia the songs last minute. bell sources out the best versions of the songs man.

oh and i acquired 2 best friends today, both of whom treat me as armrests. >< long story. and i met someone new today! gabby-the-look-innocent-but-not-really-innocent. haha and marcus gabby's gay partner, but they never admit to it. tsk...

anyway. next week and the week after that will be madness. 11th-16th will be jesus take the wheel rehearsals and musical. 18th-22nd will be christmas switch pia-ing time. we haven't even sorted out with the band yet. ugh. stress ah. and cd project with shuhoosh! 48-hours settled. plus sleepovers i think. sigh popularity comes at a price man. haha oops ego at work.

speaking of ego, the penguin from happy feet is super cute! i hear the ladies want something... ME!!! super funny. and baby gloria! -knockknockknock it's empty! can i have it?

alrights bedtime now kiddos. good night, sleep tight and don't let the bedbugs bite! whatever bedbugs are... -mutters

march of the penguins emperor!

2006-10-28T22:04:00.000+08:00

go to this videoit's super funny!

lol btw did i mention i slept for a full 12 hours last night? xD sleep is good.

maniacal laughters

2006-10-28T21:09:00.000+08:00

just a post to keep my blog from being dead.

chinese is in..... 2 DAYS! yup. jiayou to all o and a level takers! muahahaha. study hard and smart!

feel so high now, i don't know why. maybe it was playing the twisted hand game for the first time in a long time today during the o and a level prayer.

ANDANDAND, violet gave me my birthday present today!!!!! haha it's pretty!!! thankews to violet and all those who gave me presents (sorry forgot to thank you guys earlier) and to those who still owe me presents..... you know who you are. hahaha

okay tata to all, but not for long. xD

ohoho

2006-10-17T19:46:00.000+08:00

today was the first time in a long time that i took 190 home. quite sad to think that i won't be taking it a lot in the years to come.

anyway, that aside, i'm quite HAPPY today! because... i did surprisingly (for me) good for chem (muahaha tyco 4.0 for chem sem 2 xD) and more importantly, i passed my piano exam! by 10 marks, no less! xD muahaha

one geog presentation and photo journal, philo presentation and essay, and some (non-existent) pharm chem test and i'm DONE! oh and o levels too, but that's for later.

anyway all the best to those taking o levels, a levels, and exams! (:

parabola, as they say

2006-10-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

OPTIONS.ARE.HELL.

i think i broke down a lot more times during the options period than in the course of the entire year. not kidding. worry about hcl O's, eoy results, options homework, options report, all the reports, among other stuff. i can't believe they think this is so 'relaxed'. we get 30 more hours compared to normal school, which is already hell enough, and now we have the added pressure of their mentality 'i can't understand why you don't do well, it's such an easy life!'

why don't YOU suckers try it out.

even teachers go bitchy.

yes paper checking. it sucks. so far we got back eng ss bio and phy. all sucks. all 3.6s, but ss and bio could have been 4.0s. i'm not complaining, just being irritating, so ignore me please, i don't feel quite like myself.

i.just.don't.get.it.

we slogged our guts out for 8 whole months, all the time hanging on to that thread of hope that life will be, well, LIFE after that. and it doesn't help that you were the ones who gave us that hope, only to crush it with your bare hands again with all that junk about 'oh it's multi-disciplinary learning' and 'learning never stops (and never should lessons)'. so YOU idiots think it's fair that we don't even have the life of a teenager, because after all 'you're just preparing us for the future'. stupid nuts, what's the point? the future will come anyway, and we have to cope ANYWAY, whether now or in the future, so why not LET US HAVE SOME AIR WHILE WE'RE STILL YOUNG AND CAN BREATHE?

moe awards? you don't DESERVE it. all YOU people ever care about is how the public sees THE SCHOOL, whether whatever we do will reflect well on the school, never, not even ONCE, did you consider what we'd like to do. 'you're too young to kno what you want, so WE shall decide for you, and don't you DARE utter a single complain, because IT'S ALL FOR YOUR OWN GOOD'.

yes this is a long rambly entry, and i don't really care whether you read it or not, or whether you agree, cause after all, we're just a bunch of kids, to be seen and not heard, right?

class party!

2006-10-03T21:01:00.000+08:00

w00ts class party was super fun! went to ecp for lunch at macs and then went to cycle or blade for like 2 hours. jiening becca mel christine teri and i took 2 single and 2 double bikes (with jiening and i on the single bikes and the other 4 had to take doubles cause mel and teri couldn't cycle.) and we were supposed to cycle in a 'pack' but somehow that plan flopped cause some were too fast and some too slow.

reached this place with a giant sandcastle and took some photos there. then all of us except teri who was wearing shoes went into the sea and started doing a lot of silly stuff like singing disturbing renditions of some songs and splashing water and sand on each other. then we cycled till i think nearly the end of ecp and then turned back. in the end the others ended up dunno where so daryl and i went to the jetty to take in the ~~hazy~~ beautiful scenery (which we couldn't really see much of anyway). sat there watching a mother and daughter trying to fly a kite and talked about some random stuff, then decided to go back and find the others.

met them at 7-11 and we all got slurpees! yummy. my first time drinking a slurpee. shared a cherry/green apple with jiening and after sometime of mingling outside 7-11 ~~and blocking the road~~ we headed back to the bike shop.

hohoho. after returning our bikes we (mel jiening becca stacy and me) went to play cards by the beach! cause the wind was so strong, we had to stick them in the sand and we looked like homeless refugees (cause we were hiding behind a breakwater thing trying to get away from the wind). jiening got freaked out by the sand and i got freaked out by the ants. there was a cute doggie there too! we tried yelling out random dog names but it dao-ed us. humph.

2 losers of every game had to climb up the breakwater and do the chicky dance, which stacy FILMED (stacy if you're reading this you had better not circulate it or we'll throttle you. xD). and once jiening and i had to shout into the sea 'wei4 she2 me4 wo3 de4 ming4 ne4 me4 ku3!!!!!' (why is my life so miserable?!?!?!). i decided jiening is my jinx. she always bids 4 (ratio of sets 10-4, if you know anything about bridge) and then calls me as her partner. once we even lost 6 sets and had to do 6 chicky dances. ><

after finishing our games of bridge, daidi and cheat, we returned to the arcade to find the rest of the class and managed to catch christine doing the para para thing. quite pro quite pro. xD xianying and shuks did some motorbike racing thing and daryl and christine also did some jurassic park thing. after that we spent about 15mins standing outside the arcade discussing (very loudly) where to eat. finally decided on taka seoul garden.

the place is expensive, lousy and not worth it. oil splattered all over the place and on my arm, but thank goodness marese (aka my cook) was there to cook for me! so all i had to do was eat. xD after finishing off lots of food and hiding a lot more in the ginseng soup bowl form them to clear, we were left with nothing to play zong1ji2mi4ma3 (guessing numbers) with, so we took kimchi! yumyum. jiening and i ended up fighting to eat it. lol. poor becca though, and stacy is brave. xD

wanted to hide out some corner of taka to play more bridge, but decided not to cause jiening had to get home, so we took mrt home (although i was alone on the toward jurong east side cause all of them either lived in serangoon, bedok, simei or somewhere similar. got home damn late and didn't manage to do lit assignment oops.

actually i still haven't done it. and leetien's chasing me for my testimonial. how? i'm so tired ):

oh wells off to cheong stuff. this is a long and incoherent entry, but nevermind.

madness

2006-09-25T21:37:00.000+08:00

AHHHHH!!!!! financial literacy project, greek presentation and report, philo essay, A strand financial math test and number theory test!!!!! HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!

stupidstupidstupid. THREE WEEKS OF LESSON ONLY AND THEY CRAM 3 BLOODY ASSESSMENTS IN?!?!?! AND THAT'S PER SUBJECT, MIND YOU. THAT'S JUST SO STUPID!!!!! STUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID! HEAR THAT OPTIONS COMMITTEE??? YOU ARE STUPID!!!!!

GRAGHRAWRPFTWTH I HATE THE OPTIONS SYSTEM!!!!! i mean, it's cool to do stuff you like, but not when it's SUPERSATURATED with assessments!!!!! the assessments aren't even there to help you learn better or whatever excuse they can give. it's so obviously there for the bloody sake of it. i mean, what can they assess you THREE times on in a span of a short 3 weeks? and not to mention that we have like what 3 hours of lesson per week? that's just DAMN DUMB. YOU! chang wen fatt, tan yin lai, kenneth lui, whoever that's in charge of this STUPID options thing, LISTEN GOOD. ASSESSMENTS ARE NOT A REFLECTION OF HOW PRO THE SCHOOL IS TO BE ABLE TO COME UP WITH -GASP ASESSMENTS! IT JUST SHOWS HOW BLOODY STUPID, IMMATURE AND THOUGHTLESS YOU PEOPLE ARE! SO THERE.

and i don't even bother hiding the fact that i'm pissed. if you wanna be so narcissist and google your bloody name go ahead. find this blog, go ahead. you can expel me for all i care, cause if you do, i'll make sure that the whole world knows what a bunch of complete and utter morons rgs is run by.

gragh i am pissed.

and to top it off, hady won singapore idol?!?!?! come on lah singapore idol committee, half the population of rgs knows that you rig the votes (yes we do. don't forget we have contacts with ex-participants) but please can you make it less obvious that it's so political-agenda-based? it's back to the "singapore is multicultural, we don't discriminate against other races"

oh for goodness sake if you were so undiscriminatory would you be labelling all the eurasians, americans, europeans and etc. 'others'? what, are they aliens? "you OTHERS, don't you DARE threaten our delicate social fabric" whatever. i shan't launch into a racial debate. later i get jailed ah. >< but in any case, if you really don't understand what's going on and the rubbish i'm spouting, it's okay, you weren't supposed to know anyway. did anyone mention transparency?

okay post is long and politically incorrect. but i don't really care. go on, expel me, or fail me in social studies. it probably won't matter.

tag replies!

2006-09-23T21:45:00.000+08:00

haha it's so irritating to tag on my board, i don't know why. but anyway i shall reply to tags here.

weiming: hi prawn^2! haha yeah i <3 chocz! we should go back there one day maybe they'll still be there! xD

violet: haha it's fun lah. i think the o level people have a tougher time xDDD

shuhoosh: how many time must i tell you that I DIDN'T DUMP YOU. tsk. yeah right lah i think all our gpas are screwed. whatever. i'm about 101% sure i failed geog, seriously.

luyang: haha yeah it's s class thing. right now it's ouran high school! go youtube it, it's so FUNNY!!!!! xD

okay people tag! xD

free chocolates!

2006-09-21T21:17:00.000+08:00

w00ts that day weiming and i were in bugis when we got FREE CHOCZ CHOCOLATES!!!!! basically we were just staring at the chocz counter and then this guy talking into a microphone came and told us that we'll get a box of free chocz if we shout 'chocz' into the microphone. so we did. and the rest is history. xD super nice chocolates.

halfway through my lovely samsoon. it's such a sad show! i don't know why but i nearly cried during some parts. don't ask me why. >< must be hormones. been feeling so upset and depressed. sigh.

i feel like a little girl trying to conquer the whole wide world

this year has been pretty screwed. although on the surface it seems pretty good, but there are things that i've done and said that i wish i hadn't. words, once gone, are gone forever. friendships, once lost, are lost for good.

it's the season of tears.

results are coming out week 4. i don't really wanna know. it doesn't really matter whether we get a 4.0 gpa or a 2.0, does it? the world will see us the way they want to, regardless of what we do or who we are. it's the same with parents. if they want us to be their perfect little child, it doesn't matter whether we are. they will go on denying the fact that we are not perfect, insisting on their ideal chid and becoming bitterly disappointed when we don't measure up.

why do we even try so hard?

long time no see

2006-09-16T10:33:00.000+08:00

in case you've been wondering why i haven't been blogging (which i don't suppose anyone does), it's because i'm too tired to. too many things are happening, and i don't know what to do. politics, sigh.

they say i'll understand it all in good time, but age ain't nothing but a number in my mind

anyway. the GOOD things are: swimming training, somewhat great options, lots of bridge and daidi and bingo, new friends and free time on my hands. xD anyone wants to join our swimming class?

oh by the way, netcarn was <3! probably because mel simin xxl and i sneaked off halfway to play bridge and daidi in class. hey that was cause the entire level was sardined in the CORRIDOR between athena gate and the back gate. some were on the courts, but the majority in the corridor. after that it raiend like mad, so EVERYONE was in the corridor. we passed the time signing each other's class tshirts. mine got extremely vandalised, by shuks especially, who wrote that i'm biantai behind my shirt, and the words 'touch me' in a very strategic spot on the shirt front. >< shall post up pictures of the piece of ahem artwork soon, if i remember.

options are pretty good. managed to get pharm chem, greek mythology, philo and geog. not bad. i hope i'll survive, even though my timetable is pretty good. every wednesday i get early days, meaning 11am. xD

excons are having prelims. good luck guys!

musical finale is three-quarters done! w00ts xD hope we survive him for a few more months.

ms neo and nancy are giving birth soon. and that reminds me syfc performances are coming up too.

ytsa proposals and reports are due. it's gonna be crazy. we have uber large-scale proposals. we can just plan till we die. haha shuhoosh this had better be worth it. ><

everybody else could tell that i confused my feelings with the truth.

can someone tell me why people like to lie?

sigh

2006-08-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

2 more days!!!!! i can't believe it. eoys are almost over. and our academic year too (sort of). yay!!!!! even though i most probably screwed up my triple sciences and geog horribly, but who cares!!!!! whee!!!!!

listening to the 'i am a friend of God' song. it's super nice!!!!! our musical finale song. xD

sigh i'm so tired talking to my mum. she's never happy no matter what i do. the only thing that she can ever remember of me is that i'm stupid, lazy and basically useless. seriously. and i don't have any say in my life. she wants me to take the bloody SAT test thing next year. like wth. SAT?!?!?! just kill me, someone. i'll just flunk it and have her hate me even more for the rest of my life. whatever. i probably won't care, or i'll just get used to it.

this is so emo. haha. oh wells. maybe it's hormones. but the song is still super nice. xD

2 more days!!!!! xD

ughpftgraghrawr

2006-08-16T21:53:00.000+08:00

SOME IDIOT STOLE MY STUPID BIO LOG BOOK AGAIN!!!!! irritating. it contains all my precious bio notes!!!!! MY PRECIOUS!!!!! -wails

and wth lah it's the week before eoys leh! the person either hates me a lot or REALLY hates me a lot. if it's the same person that stole my bio log book last year, then the person REALLY hates me. it's not as though my handwriting is super legible (it is to me lah but according to mel it's about as decipherable as heiroglyphics). but it's my 3 terms worth of blood sweat and tears! and it's like filled with super important notes!

if i find out who stole my log book ah... (ellipsis must be noted ><)

and speech day, but nevermind. one heart attack a day is my limit.

to that person, if you ever read this: YOU BETTER RETURN MY LOG BOOK TO ME AND I MAY FORGIVE YOU AND FORGET THIS EVER HAPPENED. BUT IF I FIND OUT WHO YOU ARE... YOU'LL BE SORRY.

<3 tennis!

2006-08-15T22:14:00.000+08:00

w00ts i <3 tennis! yay.

c.hngwenli is nuts. eoys are in 7 days and she just gave us this bio assignment thing which is probably worth a week's of work and it's due on friday, which is 3 days from now. i feel like murdering her. the week before eoy and we have 4 assessments. kudos to rp, no?

AHHHHH

2006-08-14T22:49:00.000+08:00

stress ah! eoys are enxt week. mmhm. 7 more days. mmhm. i haven't started studying (not really anyway). mmhm. good job.

yes apparently everyone's suddenly hit with the notion that -gasp- EOYS ARE IN A WEEK'S TIME!

and we still get so many summative assessments the week before the eoys, i.e. 3! phy spa, eng essay and eng orals! scary.

i do hope i don't screw eoys up badly. such a waste.

yes self-centredness takes over again.

but i ramble. the point is: we're stressed. we need a break. we need a life.

but then again, freedom in 15 days. so near yet so far. you can almost taste the freedom, but when you think about the gigantic hurdle you gotta cross first, the freedom seems to fly out of your hands.

i'm hungry.

this post is just random. and weird.

countdown to the showdown

2006-08-13T22:05:00.000+08:00

yay school ends in three weeks. after all the erm eoys. yeah. even though i'm pretty confidently positively absolutely convinced that i'm gonna die for eoys, there's still hope right? one can always be optimistic. yup we can.

phy spa, eng test all tomorrow. did i mention the wall looks very tempting?

in case you haven't realised, this is going to be a(nother) post on me! ahaha ego sets in. oh wells.

this is a stolen 5 mins from mugging phy cause i can't figure out anything. so well technically the 5mins extends forever, but i shall try to be hardworking and get back to work.

see you on the other side.

irritating

2006-08-08T19:52:00.000+08:00

look. i'm not your puppet, and i'm not your slave. stop trying to live your life through me. it's not even as though you're trying to make me do something you didn't have the chance to do when you were young. it's that you're trying to get revenge at ME because YOUR life sucked. yes i know your entire childhood and youth were spent studying. so what? that doesn't mean i have to follow your footsteps. i have the right to live my life.

don't even bother pretending that you're so righteous and full of dignity that you have the right to lecture me on how to live my life properly. stop trying to make me waste my youth hating you, and then waste the rest of my life hating myself.

you're not me, so stop trying to control me.

yes ladies, ladies and ladies. eoys are here. fortunately or unfortunately.

i haven't started studying! -panics. oh wells i'll just fail everything and get expelled and become a road sweeper for the rest of my life.

randomness yes? happy birthday singapore

stupidstupidstupid

2006-08-01T20:19:00.000+08:00

stupid. am i colourblind or something? or perhaps i'm just too dumb for words. ugh stupid. oh well i'm not at liberty to mention details, but i just feel like throwing myself off the eiffel tower, or drowning myself in disgusting copper (II) sulphate, whatever.

and i haven't started on ss.

i feel quite... retarded, for want of a better word. utterly retarded. so retarded i should be sent to the Retarded Gamete School. oh wait, i'm already in it.

4 more weeks to liberalisation. i feel like a communist.

sakura international buffet, here i come.

oooh steroids

2006-07-31T20:55:00.000+08:00

haha came back from my STEROIDS injection. sounds cool right? heh actually it's for some immune system malfunction that causes it to attack my hair so my hair falls out. >< so don't worry lu i won't become bald at the age of sixteen! xD

ss is so cool! haha i don't know why i suddenly love ss so much. maybe it's cause of azahar. i've never in my life slacked so much during lessons for a single subject and still score so high for it. either he has a knack for teaching it, or i have a knack for learning it. it's probably the former though. xD

the OTHER humanities, however, is a total disaster. i don't even wanna talk about it for fear my blood pressure will rise or some nonsense like that. speaking of nonsense... but nevermind. health is more important.

yummy my mummy made xiaolongbaos! yay yumyumyum! off to my darling xiaolongbaos!

stressed

2006-07-30T17:56:00.000+08:00

everything's just falling apart and i don't know why. exams, teachers, friends, parents, headaches, nightmares, insomnia, hormones, i don't know.

been having splitting headaches for no reason these few days. like i'll just be sitting somewhere listening to someone talk or reading something, and soon my head will feel like someone's trying to drill a hole through it.

and nightmares. it's always the same few nightmares, every single night. always about time running out, people trying to catch me, me trying to stop something, but time is always running out.

eoys are in 4 weeks, and i'm horribly unprepared. blame myself for slacking the whole year away, now i'll just have to face the consequences.

disgusting people politicking away. you think we don't know what you're trying to do? TRY HARDER, honey, or else just give up, cause you're probably just gonna fail, just like you fail in everything else. i may be way too morbid or cynical for your taste, but you're just way too stupid for mine.

i can't find the word to describe a certain geography teacher. she's just so... unbalanced. yeah yeah yeah she's so great and oh-so-logical and with such a worked-out mind, she just can't seem to get the idea that lower human beings (meaning those who don't find favour with her) have rights. call me legalistic, but she ought to be put to sleep. yes the way animals do.

and parents too. why can't they understand that if i'm ever to LIVE, i need to breathe, not have them hovering over me with their hands around my neck threatening to strangle me if i don't say what they want to hear? if i don't like to eat ice cream, i just DON'T! the same applies for everything else. just because they THINK they know what's best for me doesn't mean i have to agree. oh please you really think i love to bury myself in books from the instant i was born till the time i die, which by the time i'll be lifted from my grave of books and placed in a grave of dirt?

excuse me, i'm just in one of my morbid moods.

stupid

2006-07-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

ah stupid blogspot. typed a whole entry and it just died on me. anyway. the point of that entry was something about being sick. yeah something like that. ><

got back geog today. that p.ang is really... UGH! first the fieldwork thing (we got 10/16, which is 62.5%, and the HIGHEST in the class, and everyone totally deserved a lot more), and then the test. she's really damn biased man, and she marks without any 'thought processes'. seriously someone should just open up her brain and they'll probably just find vegetables growing inside. probably with the mould and mushrooms as well, since it's so underused. ><

oh yeah and now i remember what the entry was about. a particular someone. if the person reads this he/she/it will probably know what i'm talking about.

gosh GET OVER YOUR IMMENSE LOVE OF YOURSELF. YEAHYEAHYEAH I KNOW YOU ABSOLUTELY ADORE YOURSELF, BUT PLEASE TRY NOT TO MAKE THE WHOLE WORLD PUKE ALL OVER. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT, NO AUTHORITY AND ABSOLUTELY NO REASON TO DO WHAT YOU DID/DO/KEEP ON DOING. THEY'RE NOT YOUR SLAVES YOU KNOW, HAVEN'T YOU LEARNT ANYTHING ABOUT SERVANT LEADERSHIP?

(this part not in bold to spare your poor eyes)
don't you ever listen? don't you get the point that you make mistakes? can't you see that you're just making life difficult for everyone? is it that hard to at least TRY to empathise? or is your whole world just about you, you and you? oh please GROW a conscience or something, together with a brain, and the world will be a much better place, i assure you.

sick. gross.

2006-07-26T21:21:00.000+08:00

ugh idiot i'm still sick! since... lemme think. june. that sucks. ><

the past few week have been up and down. stuff have come and gone, and i still feel as dead as ever. i've gotten to know some people better though, very interesting indeed. xD

gosh do i really need to repeat myself? or are you waiting for history to repeat itself? goodness. some people never learn. worse still, they belive they're always right. if you read this, i don't believe you have no idea what i'm talking about. yes i'm talking about YOU. get a grip on reality, you're not like the greatest person on earth. far from it. so please get over your love of yourself and get on with life.

it's hard to believe one can love oneself so much. -shudders

oh wells. amusingamusingamusing.

tralala i'm being random. xD

random stuff

2006-07-16T13:46:00.000+08:00

youtubed a lot on friday, and found an interesting team that xj introduced. also watched high school musical! heh anyway enjoy.

damn tired nowadays. there's eng pt tomorrow, bio on tuesday, and chi sometime this week too. school sucks.

deutschland ole!

2006-07-11T22:47:00.000+08:00

ahaha germany won portugal!!!!! 3-1. spectacular match, with super pro players! like klose (my favourite!), schweinsteiger, kahn, lahm, and even those who weren't playing, like ballack and podolski. (notice they're all german players? xD) okay so maybe c. ronaldo is good, but he's so irritating! his footwork rocks though. ahhh i'm gonna miss german soccer, especially klose!!!!!

2008 european cup. who cares about a levels. i hope germany wins, even though kahn won't be playing anymore, and neither will zidane. sigh.

anyway back to reality. farewell alma mater 2006! stupidstupidstupid. instead of the meritus mandarin we were all looking forward to, we get some lousy, ulu orchard hotel, and instead of the elegant-posh-fun themes we all expected, we get retro night. >< what is wrong with the committee? i suppose we could blame it on last year's batch (or more accurately, the committee that planned last year's FAM). who asked them to invite ronin, make so much noise, and caused their successive batches to be permanently banned from meritus mandarin in the near future?!

but it might be fun. MIGHT.

did i mention we got into the racial harmony day song competition finals? crap now jiening and i have to harmonise more in pitch and louder cause we're the only 2 people harmonising. >< but anyway i'm proud of you 401! it's the first time we got into the finals for such a ~~lame~~ prestigious event.

report's coming out this week. time to die. i just hope my gpa can at least maintain. ugh crap a strand test tomorrow. die lah die. maybe, just maybe j.ustinteo will be nice and not kick me out of a strand?

fat hope, slim chance.

okay i'm rambling. my wrist is still injured (blasted tendon) from piano, i eat 6 meals a day now, and i seemed to have developed an extreme delight for p.ang (although that most likely already developed sometime beginning last year).

i'm gonna fail my eois, together with piano exam, and o levels as well. just you wait and see.

ahhh stupid world cup

2006-07-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

humph. first argentina, then germany, then portugal. this world cup isn't fun anymore. ><

my favourite finals teams: germany and argentina. but sigh germany kicked out argentina and then italy kicked out germany. humph. and then i thought portugal had a chance, but then the stupid penalty came and now portugal's gonna be thrashed by germany. ):

this world cup is real weird ya know? maybe the mafia rigged the games.

okay nvm i'm quite incoherent now, damn tired. ><

bye.

youth day!

2006-07-02T16:55:00.000+08:00

ahaha no school tomorrow! at least no academic school. i shall spend the day piano-ing and studying for THE differentiation test on tuesday, which i heard was a total killer. just printed out all the inet practices they gave us, and i shall practice until i can differentiate like there's no tomorrow.

frankly, i'm damn scared for the test. this is the deciding factor of 2 subject credits. any idea what that does to your overall gpa? but to pull my gpa back to a 4.0, i need a 95% for this test. RRRIGHT.

did i mention that the ywav shirt rocks?

my posts are getting shorter.

1 down, 9 more to go

2006-07-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

first week of school is officially over. i'm still sick, and lessons seem to make it worse. well at least our wonderful aircon is fixed, and now our classroom vaguely resembles the arctic (without the igloos and eskimos).

reach service today. pretty raw, but quite good for a first time. tomorrow's seeker service and i'm playing.

okay i have nothing more to say. so tired i'll probably just end up spouting gibberish. ><

bye folks.

and school starts.

2006-06-25T18:05:00.000+08:00

schools starts..... tomorrow. about 13 hours away. ugh that sucks.

damn i'm super tired. with a record breaking sleeptime of 1.5 hours. officially. from 6.30am to 8am this morning. why? let me begin the story properly.

woke up, bought tim's cake, and met melody and lejon at queenstown at 12 to do work, ended up eating lunch and then going for prayer, and then i was supposed to do work during food rationing time (was excused cause i was sick) but i fell asleep instead. >< went for cia to finish up judas (which was actually very interesting...), then celebrated tim's birthday a bit, then went for dinner at tanglin.

after dinner and talking a bit, i met mel to have supper and visit tanglin macs. we ended up staying past midnight to talk ~~and kope free food~~. saw boss' bf (cannot mention her name in case she googles it or something ><) and gossiped a bit here and there. then suhaimi mel and i cabbed home (well sort of, we dropped mel off at orchard cause she lives in such a ulu-ated place) and i reached home at 1am!

after bathing etc (which includes thanking God for the millionth time that my parents weren't home if not that'll be hell to pay for reaching home so late), went online to do eng and chem and to help suhaimi with his ppt lesson thing. ended up sleeping at 6.30am. >< woke up at 8am for church, followed by befrienders thingy and then worship rehearsal. ahhh i'm so tired! i think i've said that to everyone about a million times today.

okay anyway enough of me. the more important issue here is: SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW!

if tomorrow never comes...

ahhhhh bugbugbug!

2006-06-23T22:08:00.000+08:00

i've officially been hit by the flu/cough bug. my voice sounds like sandpaper, and i feel horrible. been coughing my brains out nearly the past week. ugh this is bad.

schools starts monday. i hate to be reminded of it. i think school makes me an escapist. ><

funfunfun

2006-06-21T11:38:00.000+08:00

whew. this week has been fun. camp, class party, ytsa induction and electives, sleepover (in which sleep is forbidden), and ehhhh... i can't remember what else. oh did i mention i got a new laptop and a new piano, and my parents bought a new washing machine too? so this month we're broke. ): but it'll be fun. does anyone know how to partition laptops? i'm banned from it till partitions are installed. ><

so... camp. funfunfun. lots of injuries, very little sleep, lots of food, and very fun. bbq, basketball, sleeping on the rocks, playing on the beach and in the sea, and invading sam's house after we broke camp, where i finally got some restful sleep on a sofa and under the aircon. instant noodles for lunch and movies to watch. ahhhhh...

class party. it was a barbecue without the barbecue. so we ate, watched silent hill, played some card game, played zip zap pingpong, watched the marshmallow showdown between snowman and christine, and then went home. being the absolutely brilliant genius that i am, i left my handphone and wallet with mel, who brought it home, and who is in malaysia now. so i'm quite erm... out of contact. but nvm she's coming back tonight.

okay that's about all i have to say. quite tired now. and i'm super excited for reach service! w00ts the leaders have great stuff in store (both literally and figuratively). yeahhhhh. i hope i get a green and a purple ywav tshirt. xD

post-wep

2006-06-12T11:43:00.000+08:00

ah wep has ended. i actually miss the place. besides all the noise and heat and screaming aunties and some irritating customers and the fact that it took up half my holidays. >< and i like kitchen! which is totally opposite to mel (again), who loves lobby (which i hate) and loathes kitchen. anyway we're probably gonna visit them this sat night and shop around at the night bazaar (w00ts). the only thing is, we probably break camp at 7plus this sat. sigh.

anyway my last day of work was pretty fun. the entire 4 hours it was pretty empty, so i got to walk around a bit, ~~slack,~~ lobby a bit and learn how to make fries. imagine learning that on your last day. >< shin was pretty amused teaching me. but anyway it's now over and i only have memories left. haha doesn't that sound so tragic? but at least we can visit them from time to time. xD

after the first 2 weeks of holidays, it feels like they never started. third week will be camp, math lesson (ugh i still haven't done all the work) and fourth week? maybe a bit of shopping and then it's off to cheonging pts.

speaking of camp. this has got to be the pro-est planning team ever. haha camp on thursday, we start doing logistics, food and games, and worship stuff on sat. but we have a large team, so that makes things easier. xD

WORKWORKWORK!

2006-06-04T20:06:00.000+08:00

after one week (or nearly one week) working at macs, there's only one word (well, actually two, no, three. yeah three.) i can use to describe the experience there: tiring, fun and crazy. tiring because you run around for [insert number of hours] hours, fun because of the people [yes including those self-proclaimed ones. -stares] and crazy because sometimes there's not a single soul, and sometimes there are way too many souls in there.

but overall it was fun. and very enriching. now i know why so many MNCs value macdonalds training so much. it's really very extensive.

0.25 of the holidays are gone! must treasure the remaining 0.5 that isn't taken up by wep.

smo!

2006-05-30T20:39:00.000+08:00

haven't been blogging in ages. well, to sum up the past few days, it's been shopping, shopping and more shopping. together with macdonalds interview, youth rally, church and other stuff that i probably can't remember for the life of me.

shopping! mmm i love gss. you get to buy so much more! now that sounded quite auntie-ish, but the point is: shopping rocks. so far i've bought my silver flipflops (yummy in more ways than one xD and if you didn't understand that, don't try, because you probably won't want to), a black top, 3 vcds (at dirt cheap prices), 2 pairs of earrings, 3 packets of makeup remover and 1 tube of yummy lychee lotion (at dirt cheap prices too, from basic beauty). what's left on the agenda: golden boho skirt from far east (<33333!), little india for henna and such, queensway for more bargains (the auntie personality comes out again), and lots of others i can't remember.

i shan't think about work. oh yes singapore math olympiad today. completely horrible. i think i'm going to receive the smo award for the person with the least number of correct answers, ever in recorded smo history. that sounds kinda cool. xD first, i was late, cause of a traffic jam (stupid 1 million commuters) and got scolded. second, i didn't know about the no calculator rule, so i brought it in and got scolded again. and lastly, i wrote the wrong register number and had to rush back to the hall to change it. i think kenneth lui was about to kill me. that reminds me, i owe him a letter of apology for being late and breaking the no calculator rule. >.<

after smo i went lunch with violet xD sakae yumyumyum. even though i was a bit freaked out at the number of plates violet can eat. xD after that shopping again. oh during our lunch, jingwen called me and apparently shiwei and her were at tanglin macs looking for me! HAH i told them to come again tomorrow. xD heh how sweet of them, to walk all the way to tanglin to visit me at macs, even though they got the day wrong. xD oh and if she reads this, happy birthday jingwen!

work tomorrow. according to mel the place is sort of a hell on earth. ugh.

and if you're reading this, look to the left of this paragraph, and TAG! xD

happy holidays everyone!

1 more day left!

2006-05-25T22:26:00.000+08:00

ah yes tomorrow's the last day of school (finally)! today was very... eventful, to sat the least. i vaguely remember simin going very pale and dripping cold sweat during geog and the whole class mother-henning her, the uber-fun 2hour40min long class party (including the 1hour that azahar ponned our lesson for. did i mention that i <3 azahar? xD) with movie and lots of food!

er also phototaking, getting marks back (NOT my favourite activity, as you can probably imagine), slacking and sleeping during irrelevant lessons, along with the rest of the stuff that students typically do when the term's about to end.

to sum it up, this semester has been crazy. hectic and crazy. what's with all the pts and assessments and studies and stress and cca and all the rest. it's a miracle we made it through.

sadly though, joan chan shufang passed away last evening. tragic, really. i suppose we all saw it coming, but it was still a shock nevertheless (at least to me). at least she lived her life, however short, to the best of her ability. yes it's cliche i know, but quite true what.

alright forgive the incoherence, i'm not really thinking very well right now. time to start on english pt research.

stupid gpa

2006-05-23T15:03:00.000+08:00

got back about 80% of our results already. i shan't comment on them. i guess the teachers already tried to be lenient (errr, right) so we can't do much about them. i'm pretty happy about bio though, a.ndrewchia gave me additional marks for another question which i didn't even ask for, so now my bio's been upped by one gpa band. xD oh and ss. i <3 a.zahar xD

left math and chem, tomorrow's gonna be a long day.

oh wells 3 more days to holidays (assuming they DON'T give us our polling holiday, and that's very possible).

stupid papercuts

2006-05-19T22:40:00.000+08:00

ahhh finally finished sorting out and stapling 63 sets of surveys. that's like 252 pieces of paper. and that results in a lot of papercuts. well at least i'm done with them. now the task is to find a box that can contain all these objects of mutilated wood.

yanchu's tomorrow. and yes it is very screwed. everything screws up. i just hope the audience won't leave halfway through the performance. it's only like an hour long. no quality, PLUS no quantity. die man.

i'm falling sick AGAIN. sore throat (once again YANCHU'S TOMORROW!!!!! -PANICS), runny nose, weird temperature changes and the rest. crap.

okay set gpa for this year: 3.00
ironically this year my only (projected) 4.0 is physics, which happens to be the lesson in which i always, and i mean ALWAYS sleep through. this year i've only been somewhat awake in like 3 lessons: the first, the one in which he didn't teach, and the one in which he didn't come. cheers. even math's like screwed. and it's confirmed. 60% of the sec 4 batch failed bio. according to a.ndrewchia he 'tried his best' to make the paper easy. easy my foot that sneaky pok. wait till he loses all his performance bonuses then i laugh.

a.lmsenchu (i can't really remember how to spell his name and i don't really care) another one. efficiency: -1 x avogadro's number. ego: avogadro's number^avogadro's number. don't you love big numbers? i see how he's gonna finish the sec 4 wep by dec. later he get sacked i laugh also. but that means that super nice secretary (he's the only one in the school who has a secretary, even the principals don't) will probably lose her job. but nvm she's so nice and smart they'll probably keep her.

ugh irritatingness. there's a crap lot to do tomorrow. oh wells 1 more week.

2 more days

2006-05-18T21:48:00.000+08:00

ahhh yanchu is in 2 days. >.<

got back chi today and it was damn screwed. stupid gonghan completely missed the point, and i probably would have gotten a better score if not for cuo bie zi. crap there goes my chi gpa.

a piece of fantastic news: two out of three people failed bio. wow a.ndrewchia is such a brilliant teacher. okay lee tien's actually quite good, but a.ndrewchia ah. cannot make it man. lousy + super picky. like seriously, which teacher penalizes students for not drawing a nice box outside the punnett's square?! like okay fine it's neat and everything, but shouldn't the main point of biology (or any other subject, for that matter) be to communicate ideas? and instead he nitpicks on trivial stupid details like 4 extra lines outside a punnett's square. >.<

ugh my gpa for this semester is gonna be like 3.0, and i'm not kidding. crap this sucks.

ahhh countdown to yanchu: 3 days

2006-05-17T22:07:00.000+08:00

had paixi today again. seriously i don't know how we're gonna pull it off on sat. it's super duper uber screwed lah. >.< at least in the past few years no matter how last minute it was by about 1 week before yanchu everything's like >95% done. and now, with [points to title] left, it feels like we just started paixi-ing or something. changing scenes, changing lines, changing this and that.

oh wells but shuhoosh and i bought yanchu presents already! haha thanks to her very zai budgeting skills, we managed to finish buying all the presents without spending a bomb. xD and we looked like 2 crazy auntie-fied rgs girls walking around with big plastic bags. >.< and not to mention that my school badge dropped so i was badgeless and shuhoosh stuck hers on using double sided tape.

chi results tomorrow. i just hope to pass. stupid gonghan. i bet it's gonna pull my already quite non-existent chi marks down even more. thanks ah all my targets gone. but come to think of them, my targets for this year were absurd. 4.0 for math and triple sciences, 3.6 for languages, and 2.8 for humanities. crazy ah. i wonder if i were sane >.<

so far only geog has met the target of >60 marks. but that's probably because of 1) it was a very low target and 2) ode saved (part of) our fps. oh crap that reminds me stupid assignment's due tomorrow and it's a horrifying 5%. >.< aiya math and chem and bio say goodbye. phy still got hope. eng and chi don't even think about them. and ss? it'll depend on the good graces of azahar.

ahhh this is unfair.

back

2006-05-16T20:11:00.000+08:00

ah finally time (and energy) to blog after being suffocated in that mountain of work. at least now there's some time to take a breather before uh well, ss test, phy pt, wep, nus math competition, and stuff. yeah. anyway. the tests are over (except for ss, but that's another matter altogether). that's one good thing. and we got back math test? i was pretty thankful that it was enough to pull up the previous test, but now pt's the worry. ah well we can't do much about it now.

chi was screwed, to hear the rest of the classes tell it. gonghan was COMPLETELY out of point, but hey that's not our fault. the question was horrendously vague and ambiguous, which was only to be expected, of course, coming from rp, but still that's not fair. >.< and uh chem and bio? let's just try to forget about those shall we.

yanchu this sat! i do hope nothing screws up on us. if it does this could be the end of cd. ): sigh it's quite stressful to think about it, but nevermind lah.

sec4s really have a lot of commitments. seriously.

ah now to gloat (er at who?) about my new slacker timetable:
wed: school paixi full dress slack
thur: school going out
fri: school paixi full dress
sat: lsl yanchu
sun: church dance

ah see? way better than it was a few weeks back. xD don't you just love the taste of freedom (partially, at least)?

stupid dumb nus math competition that so eerily resembles rs. and speaking of which, claratan said that our rs was not bad! ahahahaha our crapping and last-minute cheonging skills must rock man. xD

oh btw anyone else wants yanchu tickets hurry up and order!!!!! (:

gragh

2006-04-18T20:47:00.000+08:00

this is crazy. seriously. the school is suffocating us. hear that? SUFFOCATION.

let's see.
wed: eng FA + pft + chem pt meeting overnight at mel's house (and we most likely won't get any sleep)
thur: paixi
fri: chemicar run + paixi
sat: competition + rs meeting overnight (again no sleep)
sun: church + study for chem test (3+ months of chem into half a day. wish me luck.)
mon: chem eoi + paixi (probably)
tue: rs presentation (!!!) + piano lesson
fri: chem report + geog fieldtrip assignment

yeah. i can't remember the rest. actually i shouldn't be typing all this junk. i should be SLEEPING, considering the fact that i probably won't get any sleep at all tomorrow night and those that follow. but i just couldn't resist typing this out. cause THIS IS KILLING ME. well not just me, but everyone else.

cheers to rp, no?

busybusybusy

2006-04-15T21:30:00.000+08:00

schedule's damn packed. this is a normal week:

monday: school + paixi
tuesday: school + piano lesson
wednesday: school + something (which varies from week to week)
thursday: school + paixi
friday: school + paixi
saturday: special olympics + ywav
sunday: church + dance practice + some meeting for rs or some other subject

ugh competition is next sat we have one more week -panics

the weeks after competition are saturated with exams and pts and whatnot (including the oh-so-dreaded rs!!!!!)

chem is screwed. well, at least the most screwed among all my subjects for now, which is ironic considering it was my second best subject last year.

i'm tired and i'm falling sick. and i'm becoming very irritable so forgive me if i snap at you.

okay this post is quite long. don't expect anything quite like this for about the next [insert large number here] days/weeks/months/years. yeah.

bye.

oh and i forgot to mention. piano is damn screwed too.

yeah this post is so egocentric. whatever.

ora

2006-04-08T21:28:00.000+08:00

piano in the morning. i spent one entire hour walking around the place trying to find her house. heh. now i think i know how confusing bukit timah is. really confusing. >.<

went for ora after that and basically walked around aimlessly for a while, picking bitch fights, and running away from people who were trying to get us to buy stuff ~~or trying to take photos of us~~. xD

went to lunch with mel and we erm discussed our bio thesis paper. yeah. quite hilarious, seriously.

after that went for cia and was a little late, but cia today was quite funny. everyone was pretty stoned out and were saying weird stuff. and then at 5pm two-thirds of the people left for worship, so we were left with 6 people. xD

forgive and forget, that is the key.

ugh

2006-04-07T21:52:00.000+08:00

sports fest today! nothing much to say, except the vp is super extra. and we had novelty race and buckle won! xD

tomorrow there's piano and then ora. and then go church. yay. no time to study ss again. and sunday there's church, dance and chem meeting. crap this weekend is gone, and ss is due like thursday?!

feeling very pissed now. some people just don't get the point. you TELL THEM what's your point, and they can still miss it. their lives only exist from their perspective, everyone else is just 'unreasonable'. what the hell. and they like to flatten people to 2-dimensional stereotypes, easier to 'classify'. oh this person is like this, and therefore will always behave like this. what an example of determinism. philo teachers will love you to bits.

[this section removed cause i realised that it was too disgusting for words]

did it really come to this?

what if

2006-04-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

hm. dance yesterday was pretty good. errr that's about it? except i'm super tired now. but i don't wanna sleep yet. tomorrow's sports fest, and we get to wake up late (i.e. 10am xDDD)

geog pt is over! xD chem and ss both postponed. but my ss is still suepr screwed because there was none to begin with. ugh. must start cheonging soon. chem ah, aiya die lah, don't care.

tired, pissed, and whatever.

i can't think of anything else to say, except what if things were different?

AHHH STRESS AH

2006-04-03T16:02:00.000+08:00

geog pt due on thur, ss pt due on fri, chem pt due first block next week!!!!! AHHHH DO EXTENSIONS EXIST IN THIS HORRENDOUS WORLD OF RP?!

ah but at least we finished rs. xD zerui and i did from like 4 plus till 11 plus and we finished it!!!!! it's er VERY long though. 45 pages, and 10 000 plus words. but that's including appendix and all those nonsense.

and i wanna say thanks, because you're you.

this friday no school! MUAHAHAHA SPORTS FEST. xD we're doing novelty race w00ts man! hahaha hope it's fun. xD piano on sat, so that means i can't go for special olympics again! oh wells no choice lah. ))):

this goes out to all the poor slaves of rp: jiayou! once we're past these two week there'll be no more pts! errr at least until further notice. xD

hm... sin and cos are yummy. xD

yay my dream subject combi

2006-04-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

super tired now, but anyway just blogging to say that i've found my perfect subject combination!!!!! heh subject to changes, but for now, it's what i wanna do!

H2 and H3 math
H2 chem and bio
H1 phy and econs
plus H1 GP and PW

that's 11 units (rjc norm) and 28.5 hours! yay i like! xD heh

ahhhhh

2006-03-31T22:10:00.000+08:00

got back chi test today. er i shan't comment on it. better than i had expected, but worse than i had hoped for. yeah something like that.

it's the end of week 2. and it feels like we've been under stress forever. which isn't untrue anyway.

had this talk by the vice principal of rjc today. i think i've more or less decided on my combi. that totals to about -takes out pen and paper- 11 units, which is the rjc norm, and errr... 28.5 hours. why so little. >.< weird. nvm i'll go study the thing again. >.<

ahhh next week! pts pts and more pts. oh wells. time to start mugging.

tests!

2006-03-30T21:23:00.000+08:00

finally. phy and geog test are over! now it's time for the pts. yeah thanks a lot. the tests weren't as bad as i had imagined, but they weren't fantastic either. and we're getting back chi test tomorrow. this week is bad.

had paixi today again. oh no i just realised that the competition is less than a month away! and we've like just finished the raw stuff, haven't started perfecting it yet. ugh. but nevermind we are PRO, we will finish it!

ss and geog pt due next week, and i have absolutely no idea where to begin. there's just so much stuff to do, i wish i could clone myself.

feeling very depressed for no reason. this happens a lot once school reopens, i realise. >.< ahhh now i just feel like giving up. i think all these are beginning to make me hate myself more and more. why can't i be more like this, why can't i be more like that. sigh.

on a somewhat happier note, week 2 is ending. erm 8 more weeks to go? yippee.

so much to do, so little time

2006-03-28T20:33:00.000+08:00

sigh. so much to do. but, on the bright side, i finished studying for phy! heh i thought it was going take like ages, but surprisingly finished it quite fast. now i'm on to the dreadful subject of geog. sigh.

rs almost finished! i'm so happy!

i can't believe something like that just happened. what's wrong with me? now i know what pride comes before a fall really means.

stressed and depressed nowadays. i've become really sensitive, not in the good sense. even small little things can get me down. this is really bad.

addicted to 'silent all these years', originally sung by tori amos, but the version i have is by stephanie sun. mel got me hooked onto that song. the lyrics don't make any sense to me, but it's still very nice. and i love nickelback too. xD

years go by, will I still be waiting, for somebody else to understand
years go by, will I choke on my tears till finally there is nothing left

this post is random.

einstein's riddle

2006-03-25T20:23:00.000+08:00

mel sent me this so i decided to do it, and i solved it!!!!! xD yay i feel so accomplished. xD (answer in black at the end of the question, but no cheating!)

There are no tricks, just pure logic, so good luck and don't give up.

1. In a street there are five houses, painted five different colours.
2. In each house lives a person of different nationality
3. These five homeowners each drink a different kind of beverage, smoke different brand of cigar and keep a different pet.

THE QUESTION: WHO OWNS THE FISH?

HINTS

1. The Brit lives in a red house.
2. The Swede keeps dogs as pets.
3. The Dane drinks tea.
4. The Green house is next to, and on the left of the White house.
5. The owner of the Green house drinks coffee.
6. The person who smokes Pall Mall rears birds.
7. The owner of the Yellow house smokes Dunhill.
8. The man living in the centre house drinks milk.
9. The Norwegian lives in the first house.
10. The man who smokes Blends lives next to the one who keeps cats.
11. The man who keeps horses lives next to the man who smokes Dunhill.
12. The man who smokes Blue Master drinks beer.
13. The German smokes Prince.
14. The Norwegian lives next to the blue house.
15. The man who smokes Blends has a neighbour who drinks water.

ALBERT EINSTEIN WROTE THIS RIDDLE EARLY DURING THE 19th CENTURY. HE SAID THAT 98% OF THE WORLD POPULATION WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO SOLVE IT.

SOLUTIONS: (you may want to draw five squares in a row to represent the houses and then write the descriptions above the squares. You will need to do this to so that you can note which characteristics have already been used)

(a) The Norwegian lives in the first house (9)
(b) The second house is blue (14)
(c) The first house is yellow (1) & (4) & (c)
(d) The person in the third house drinks milk (8)
(e) The person in the first house drinks water (5) & (12) & (3) & (d)
(f) The second house smokes Blends (15)
(g) The third house is red (5) & (4)
(h) The fourth house is green and the fifth house is white (4)
(i) The person in the fourth house drinks coffee (5)
(j) The third house is owned by a Brit (1)
(k) The second house keeps horses (11)
(l) The person in the fifth house smokes Blue Master and drinks beer (12 - only place that both characteristics can stay together)
(m) The second house is owned by a Dane who drinks tea (3)
(n) The fourth house is owned by a German who smokes Prince (13)
(o) The fifth house is owned by a Swede who owns dogs (2)
(p) The person in the third house smokes Pall-Mall and owns birds (6)
(q) The person in the first house owns cats (10)

Therefore, the German must own the fish!!

woots so fun!!!!!

stress ah

2006-03-24T23:15:00.000+08:00

wah there's:

geog future problem solving
geog fieldtrip assignment
geog test on resources
ss pt on multi-culturalism
phy test on thermal and static
chem pt on goodness-knows-what
rs- the usual boring fatal stuff

yes that's all. NOT A LOT LAH HOR. but thank God, max found me an ss-cum-geog pro! ahhh thanks a million to max and the pro (shan't put his name in case he googles it >.<)!

ah i feel somewhat better, but looking at all that work -points to the mount everest beside me, the headache comes back. >.<

went to study with heartheart today. i finished that torturous article by markhong. but still haven't started on any other articles! -panics and runs around like a mad chicken. HOW HOW HOW?!?!?!

phy test also. wth lah i don't know what he's teaching man.

chem. don't even talk about it. just the mention of AHEMAHEMAHEMcoughcoughcough makes my blood boil.

ok i'm blaming the whole world for my -lack of- brain cells. whatever lah. i'm just stressed. so is everyone. rs due on monday ah!!!!! -points to clock. it's friday night at 1130pm!!!!!

ooh let me tell you a story.

there was a guy who wanted to commit suicide, so he planned an elaborate setup to ensure that he dies the way he wants to. he stood at the top of the cliff, tied a rope to a boulder and the other end to his neck, drank poison, set himself on fire, and proceeded to shoot himself in the head.

the bullet missed his head, hit the rope, broke the rope and when he jumped into the ocean, the water put out the fire and the waves beat the poison out of him so he puked it out. he was rescued by some people but died on the way to the hospital cause the water was very cold and he froze to death.

~the end~

it's amazing how many geniuses there are in this world, isn't it?

i wanna be a pilot!

2006-03-23T21:24:00.000+08:00

science centre in the morning. it was pretty cool, way better than i expected. now i wanna be a pilot! damn cool! you get to fly, a super good job, a retirement pension of between $800 000 and $1 million, and lots of fun! ain't that so cool????? the only thing is, i need one more cm. minimum height requirement is 162! UGH.

went to jurong library to study after that. studied for 3.5 hours! i'm so proud of myself. however, i only managed to get through about half of that torturous article by mark hong. damn i have ambassadors. they're all so long-winded. can't they consolidate their points and then give it to the people?

anyway. i forgot what i wanted to say here. errr. i feel hurt. yeah. xD

i can't believe tomorrow's a friday! i don't want!!!!!

oh did i mention that i met marvel tan today? so cool! haha i think he's the only person from 6K who can still recognise me! i didn't even recognise him lah. and he talks in chinese now! so funny! haha ok i shan't be mean. >.< anyway it was good to see him.

i sound weird. STOP ACTING LIKE SOME DUMB BIMBO, ANYI.

math viva voce!

2006-03-22T22:32:00.000+08:00

sigh i screwed up math viva voce. oh wells it's only about 2.something % of the whole year's marks, so errr nevermind lah hor. >.<

after math went to the polyclinic to get my xray results. the doctor was super amusing. and we found an ultra hot looking doctor. lol. anyway the xray report was extremely cheem. but in the end, the conclusion was, nothing remarkable. >.< funny how doctors like to confuse everyone.

after that went to j8 to do work! yay i feel so proud of myself. i read my ss notes, studied a bit for physics, and mel just did physics the whole time. sigh. we seriously haven't listened to a single physics lesson the whole year. not a single one. so both of us were just staring at the notes and going: you mean we learnt this before?!

went home and met max and zach at the mrt. boo hoo my earphone dieded on me. i'm very sad. my birthday's on the 10th october! *hinthinthint* ah nevermind i'll probably get one before that. but the date remains, and so does the hint. xD

did i mention that max and zach are very porno? i shan't go into details, but the both of them ah. >.<

oooh and i must gloat about my uber-nice medium golden brown hair. it really is ok. and the best part is, i didn't dye it! it comes with swimming. xD mel and i compared it with the dye colours and came up with this result. so cool right. it sounds very nice. xD and mel's gonna dye her hair green this year. i'm sure i can't see where the inspiration comes from -stares at school colours.

tomorrow got science centre ahhhhh. die lah. rs, DIE. geog and ss and chem and phy, DIE.

oh man i'm hungry. >.< that reminds me. mel called me a savage! maybe it's cause i eat a lot. humph but i'm not a savage! anyi is a very sophisticated member of society, albeit an often-hungry one. >.< whatever.

i can WOOF! can you? xD

this is a very self-centred post.

fieldtrips suck

2006-03-21T20:26:00.000+08:00

fieldtrips suck. they really do. i mean, what's the point of making you walk up and down the same beach 10 times just staring at the rust on the rock, or the non-existent vegetation, or measuring the slope of the sand? i mean, come on, it's all estimates, right? so that means they're all inaccurate. and we probably can't use the data. so, in the end, we're just gonna copy from someone or from the internet. I'M SURE THAT'S SUCH A GOOD WAY TO LEARN. waste time, get bored, copy. NICE.

anyway. i just wrote testimonials for all the group A people cause i was so bored. and now i realise i must have sounded like a complete bimbo. ah wells, that's probably what they remember me as anyway. i shan't confuse them with my split personalities. yet.

tomorrow got math viva!!!!! die die die ah.

oh did i mention that geog is so screwed up? 1 performance task, 1 assignment (which is about the same lah, no difference one), and 1 test. all clustered around the same time? what's their freaking problem man? don't they understand the concept of quality vs quantity? a bunch of idiots, all of them.

grrr. speaking of idiots... nevermind i shan't be so obvious.

but cannot lah. really damn pissed. SOME PEOPLE really have no brains to speak of. seriously. all they ever do is to blame other people and they don't even bother taking a good look at themselves. their sentence structures and vocabulary only consists of: it's all your fault, i'm the victim, i'm the one of importance here. gosh. someone please hand them a mirror and tell them to smash their heads against it.

sigh. there's so much to rant about but cannot lah. public blog. >.<

WRITE ME TESTIMONIALS ALL YOU FREE PEOPLE OUT THERE. i'm feeling very depressed. >.<

ok now it's time for me to shut up before someone sets my house on fire.

SO STRESSED I WANNA CRY

2006-03-19T21:52:00.000+08:00

.BLOODY FREAKING HELL THIS ISN'T LIFE, THIS IS HELL.

rs, ss, geog, chem performance tasks
phy, chem, geog, ss tests (sometime i can't remember)
math viva voce
ALL THAT SHIT POLITICS IN SCHOOL
and that's ONLY for school academically, mind you.

anybody has a good strong rope? or a piece of satin or silk like in those dumb chi shows. if i'm too bloody cynical and morbid right now for your tastes, you can always leave, i'm not stopping you. and I APOLOGIZE THAT I CAN'T BE THAT PERFECT GIRL WHO WORKS 24/7 AND SOMEHOW STILL FINDS TIME FOR SOCIAL LIFE, SORRY I JUST CAN'T SEE HOW THE MATH WORKS OUT.

don't you dare even tell me how YOU'RE having it worse. i can't see how worse this can get.

nearly broke down during worship rehearsal today but managed to control the tears. fell asleep in sermon, fell asleep while trying to study in macs. and yes, i'm falling sick.

cca, lsl, rp, rs, this and that, don't you just LOVE these names?

THIS ISN'T LIFE, THIS IS HELL.

YEAH I KNOW IT'S ALL MY FAULT CAUSE I CAN'T SEEM TO MANAGE MY TIME PROPERLY, BUT DON'T YOU THINK THAT IT'S REALLY A TEENY WEENY LITTLE BIT TOO MUCH? BLOODY HELL WE ARE TEENAGERS, AT THE PRIME OF OUR LIVES? WE HAD NO CHILDHOOD, WE ARE GOING TO HAVE NO TEENAGEHOOD, AND WE WON'T HAVE ANY ADULTHOOD EITHER! IT'LL JUST BE STRESS STRESS STRESS ALL THE WAY.

ok i'm ranting.

stop expecting, STOP DEMANDING! JUST STOP!

i'm sorry i can't be perfect. how true. i'm sorry. i tried, and i failed, and i know i've let you down, but that's all i can do.

must you drive me to my breaking point, when i totally give up on myself, before you'll stop?

i look in the mirror, and i see you. you with all your imperfections. WHO ARE YOU TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO? you're nothing but a useless piece of junk that can never amount to anything great, so why bother trying to pretend? anyi, you're really pathetic, you know that?

i give up. i admit defeat. IS THAT ENOUGH FOR YOU?

theatre sports camp!

2006-03-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

w00ts the camp rocks! really it did! damn fun! the pt, sisterhood, the 5-6 meals a day, the preparation for competition, the workshops, the competition, the games, the GROUP A!!!!! and of course our darling judy and zi yan!!!!! xD

i miss group a. i miss sports school. i miss judy and zi yan. i miss all my sisters and brothers. i miss my sugarbaby shawn (whom i ACCIDENTALLY threw against a chair and injured his knee. oops). i miss everything about the camp!!!!!

our play rockd. A2 is the best! i miss you ArchAngels! xD and something very amusing happened during the prize presentation. muahaha i'm still in shock. with the interview and uber pro photographer. xD

in short, the camp rocked. new friends, new experiences, new everything. a big kudos to the theatre practice and to team singapore! you guys rock our rocking socks! xD

my house!

2006-03-11T21:40:00.000+08:00

my house!

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You love your house and family. You are a gifted artist as well. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.
-

koped it from pam's blog. it's so cool!!!!! xD

injuries

2006-03-11T20:48:00.000+08:00

ah this week has been a week of pain. physical pain i mean. 2 injured knees, one sprained ankle and an sprained back. not to mention headaches and gastric. sigh this is what school does to me.

ok i'm not complaining about the injuries. at least they came with fun (er, not in that sense, so stop rolling on the floor laughing, mel and xxl xD). like soccer and math trail. damn fun. but very pain.

headaches and gastric ah. UGH. today went to study at the library and i was trying to read the ss notes, but then i got a migraine from it. stupid ambassador guy why must write such a bloody thick report?! it's like 1.5mm thick. idiot. all my ss notes add to about 1.5 cm thick. seriously.

holidays are here. yeah right, holidays. ss and geog pt, math viva voce, rs. THANKS A LOT, MY DEAR RAFFLES. I'M SURE THIS IS SUCH A FANTASTIC WAY TO RELAX DURING THE HOLIDAYS. did i just hear someone say 'hypocrite'? cause if you did, you are so absolutely right! in summary, to reiterate and conclude my point, school just sucks ok.

dance tomorrow, and i finally got my knee and ankle guard. ahaha. mel's trying to forbid me to go for dance, but too bad mummy! xD

crap i'm feeling pissed. hormones, hormones, hormones.

one last day

2006-03-09T21:52:00.000+08:00

one more day and it's the holidays. the wonderful holidays, the horrible holidays. work, work and more work, that's what the holidays are all about. ss pt, geog pt, math viva voce, rs and lots more. don't you just LOVE holidays? >.<

lunched with heartheart at angmokio macs today (oops i made her wait for quite long in the class for me. sorry heartheart!) and were supposed to go to the polyclinic today to check out the xray results, but it was closed. humph why do polyclinics close so early? SLACKERS.

today was pretty fun though. maths trail during maths. we ran around the school like madwomen looking for stuff. not bad lah, considering it was quite easy and amusing. like an entire class of mad girls running around the school looking for envelopes. and we got second! well we would have gotten first if ocean hadn't DELAYED us. heh actually no lah i'm just finding excuses. xD

run until my knee hurt like mad and now i can't walk! it really hurts like as though the kneecap is gonna collapse any moment. i shan't go on in case mel starts scolding me again. >.< MUMMY.

oh and i'm starting to appreciate mr azahar more. he's so slack and nice lah, such a funkay teacher. i like. xD at least i'm somewhat awake during his clas, unlike some other teacher. *ahemPahemAahemNahemG* recognise the letters? xD

crap lah tomorrow got english. i bet i'll screw it up again lah. must stock up on gastric pills already lah. one day i'll probably die of an overdose. >.<

ponned paixi today. crap i think melho and debbie are pissed. oops sorry daoyans!

tomorrow got swim carn. the school is really irritating lah. last day of school also cannot give us any peace. >.<

wah this entry contains a lot of the smiley >.<. i hope i don't get wrinkles. xD

maths lah.

2006-03-08T21:50:00.000+08:00

screwed up math test today. got gastric at the beginning of it and it continued through the whole test until i couldn't even think. or maybe i should just face up to the fact that i screwed it and nothing will change that fact.

on a happier note (somewhat), soccer was very fun today. i think our formation rocks lah. teri as the uber-pro goalie, mel and xxl as the uber-pro defenders, ode and simin as the uber-pro attackers, and me as the not so pro midfielder-attacker. xD but anyway we won both our games and didn't let in a single goal. pro right? xD

something tells me that something isn't right

stress!!!!!

2006-03-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

went home early today cause i had gastric. and that's 2 days in a row. i really think it's stress-induced lah.

MATHS TEST TOMORROW AND THERE'S STILL SO MUCH WORK TO DO!!!!!

i feel the onslaught of another migraine.

WHY ARE YOU SO PATHETIC HUH? CAN'T YOU BE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND HARDWORKING? CAN'T YOU JUST MEET THE EXPECTATION OF EVERYONE HUH? TO BE A CHEERFUL UN-STRESSED SELFLESS GIRL WHO NEVER FEELS DEPRESSED?! CAN'T YOU JUST DO WELL IN YOUR STUDIES AND STOP PISSING EVERYONE OFF? CAN'T YOU JUST BE WHO EVERYONE WANTS YOU TO BE? CAN'T YOU KEEP THE TEARS IN, BECAUSE NO ONE WANTS TO SEE YOUR TEARS? YOU THINK EVERYONE GIVES A DAMN WHETHER YOU'RE DEAD OF ALIVE, WHETHER YOU'RE HAPPY OR SAD? NEVER! EVEN YOUR PARENTS DON'T GIVE A DAMN! AND THAT'S THAT, HONEY, SO FACE IT.

so kill me, someone, please.

STRESS AH

2006-03-06T20:39:00.000+08:00

STRESS IS KILLING ME! WHAT'S WITH GASTRIC ALMOST EVERYDAY AND HEADACHES TOO (which btw i have almost NEVER in my life gotten before) AND BLOODY TEACHERS LIKE BEEBEE SAYING I'M IRRESPONSIBLE JUST CAUSE I HAD TO GO TO THE SICKBAY FOR GASTRIC?!?!?! WHAT LIFE IS THIS MAN?!?!?!

yes i am now a regular customer at the sickbay. or at least, more regular than i would have preferred. nearly broke down on sat cause there was just so much work to do, and then on sunday again. and today too. travelled all the way to dover for piano lesson and then waited outside her house for one whole hour before she finally came and we had fifteen minutes of practical. not her fault lah, but still, it sucks, especially when you're having gastric all the way.

chi, a strand math, math, eng and other stuff to do, CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.

bloody hell EVERYONE JUST FREAKING LEAVE ME ALONE!

i don't even feel like breathing anymore.

STOP DEMANDING THIS AND THAT, STOP EXPECTING THIS AND THAT, JUST STOP!!!!!

DAMN I AM STRESSED. everyone's crying and breaking down, why can't i do the same? cry, scream, anything, as long as it lets out the emotions. but no, NOOOOO. i can't even give myself one moment of peace, all because i'm too bloody caught up in this happy cheerful facade that i put on myself. yes, anyi, YOU BROUGHT THIS ON YOURSELF.

don't even bother trying to tell myself that this will all be over, BECAUSE IT WON'T, AND IT'S BLOODY NAIVE TO THINK SO. after this term, we have the next term, and then the next, and then o levels, and then rjc, and then a levels, and then we go out to work, which btw is definitely NOT un-stressful, no matter how much we try to delude ourselves.

the worst thing is, i can't even focus on things i enjoy, like church, or hanging out with friends, all because my mind is always preoccupied with other stuff. THANKS A LOT.

and this, my friends, is what i call life.

yes i'm wallowing in self-pity now. so just leave me alone.

bye

2006-02-17T20:22:00.000+08:00

this blog is going to be closed down. not permanently, i hope though. just that i won't be blogging. everything will still be here in case you miss me too much. xD

w00ts

2006-02-07T20:50:00.000+08:00

i haven't been blogging for about a gazillion years. too tired or busy or lazy lah. heh i just wanted to say: I <3 CANOEISTS AND SUNFLOWERS! (p.s. they're the same ~~thing~~ person) yeah. go figure. xD right now i think only mel and xxl know. but teri may have guessed it. haha. xD

w00ts i feel quite high now. shoebags rock! tralala. xD

tired

2006-02-03T19:51:00.000+08:00

the ~~short~~ week is finally over. only 3 days and i'm tired out. i don't even feel like blogging nowadays. the stress is crazy. probably cause of rs. hopefully after april it'll be better. if we're still alive by then.

bio rocks. i love leetien. the chi teacher's pretty nice too. i think she's good. the rest are either boring, lousy, or both. and pang happens to fall into the third category, by the way.

week 5 down, 5 more to go. i don't know how long this can last.

mission obsession has been pretty succesful so far, but i guess it's probably not gonna last.

tomorrow got cny visitation. i don't feel like going! all i feel like doing is to hide in some corner and wallow in self-pity.

but i'm not going to do that. come on girl, stand up and show that you have some fight left.

cny!

2006-02-01T21:30:00.000+08:00

w00ts i have yet to blog about cny. yeah it was fun. lots of hongbaos. and my uncle gave me an ipod mp4! <3! i miss my grandpa!!!!! -crys

w00ts i have succesfully stalked my canoeist. xD lol canoeist!!!!! -squeals

sleep-deprived >.<

2006-01-24T21:35:00.000+08:00

we're all sleep-deprived! they should have a free block at least once a week just for us to catch up on sleep or something. >.<

people have complained that my blog is dead (see my blog so nice everyone misses it xD) <--- ignore the bracketed words. so i have decided to blog! right now life consists of school (which includes everything from homework to rs to lsl to cca >.<), worship, dance, syfc drama, piano, cia and er very little sleep, at least for me. eh i need my 8 hours ok, I'M A GROWING GIRL. and this whole week since sunday i've been sleeping at what, 1230am and waking up at 530am! that's like 5 pathetic hours! i'm gonna shrink! OH NOOOOOOOOO...

hm... homework can be quite fun to do sometimes, but the thing is it's someTIMES. when you don't have the time, it's no time! so how can they possibly expect us to enjoy school?

let me recount something stupid i did on monday. i went for piano lesson with my exam pieces and scale book, or SO I THOUGHT. after i got there, i realised i brought my JAZZ book, not exam pieces. smart lah. so do scales for 1 hour. >.<

yay i'm so excited for worship and dance!

RS is stressful!!!!!

ahaha someone stole both my erasers! so i stole shuhoosh's! haha no lah i accidentally brought hers home. returning it tomorrow ok! oh shuhoosh and i amuse each other a lot.

shuhoosh: oh no i lost my eraser!
me: me too!
shuhoosh: [picks up eraser beside me] is this mine?
me: uh yeah.
OOOPS.

oh this is the scene of simin as a cardiologist:
simin: [wearing frosted glasses so she won't see the blood. she's TERRIFIED of blood] -pokes something soft. nurse! is this the heart?
nurse: uh no, that's the brain.
simin: oh crap!
xD

we should do this everyday. oh after ss we were singing and banging the tables to the beat. then mabel said 'wah you doing tribal dance ah?'

ahhh humourous scenes of 401 [plus shuhoosh of 402 >.<] actually they aren't that funny anymore once you type them out. but still, it's a good way to keep memories.

leetien was so cute as a baby! and her daughter is SUPER KAWAII DES! xD

bio talk

2006-01-19T19:48:00.000+08:00

today we had the bio talk. it was not THAT bad but they spent about 70% of the time promoting dundee university and scotland and blahblahblah. like that how to do reflections? tsk man. but rjc looked cool. er somewhat. except there was no aircon! RAWR.

lots of lessons today, and lots of homework. i am drowning. so is everyone else. what the hell lah. what happened to our youth? ok nvm it's probably a lot better compared to working. >.<

crap i woke up feeling quite happy and positive generally but after one whole day i'm in a bad mood now. nvm hopefully tomorrow will be better than today.

dinnered with mel, yq and geoff. we were all so stone so there wasn't really a lot of productive conversation. and all the ri people at macs were staring at us. wth lah. go get a life.

i don't really feel like blogging but i don't want to start on work. yet. sigh.

if you're really the jerk i think you are, there's really not much point is there?

damn i'm in a bad mood.

give up, lie down and die

2006-01-18T20:16:00.000+08:00

ugh there's just so much homework to do but i feel like blogging because if i don't i'm really gonna just break down and cry or [points to title]. yeah.

you're such a puzzle. everything seems to fall into place and one action by you takes it apart again. everything points to the fact that you're a jerk, but my heart tells me not to believe that even though my mind tells me to. deep down something tells me you're not like that, but i can't be certain of it.

you didn't start it, but you didn't stop it either. it's probably not your fault, and so i can't really say much about it. if only you did do something about it. the least you could do was to not talk about me behind my back. now my world falls to pieces, while you stand by and watch.

but i guess if there is someone to blame, that person would be me.

yeah i'm wallowing in self-pity. just leave me alone. dammit today on the mrt i met 2 groups of people whom i didn't want to meet. probably cause i wasn't in the mood. tired, depressed and generally pissed about everything in life.

sucks to you teachers who like to dump homework on us. sucks to you.

crap i wish i had never met you.

TAG!!!!!

2006-01-17T21:19:00.000+08:00

tag people tag!

today was tiring. had our first a strand maths lesson! i think justinteo is so cute! he looks like a teddy bear. xD now i know why ocean is so crazy over him. oh and i saw mr wolfe today too!!!!! w00ts!

since i'm on the topic, i shall talk more about guy/gay teachers in our school. i CRASHED into colemanchua today. cause i was talking to mel and then i turned and crashed into him. like why can't he walk at the other side of the corridor which is so empty? think he very skinny right. >.<

lol i think shuhoosh is so cute! ahhh i <3 shuhoosh! xD

and i <3 mel too! and xxl! and ode! and simin! and teri! ah my hand hurts from typing exclamation marks. heh.

miss neo is cute.

dinnered with heartheart today at long john silvers cause she was so broke. xD talked as usual. haha when we were bitching about ri guys these 2 guys sitting behind me turned around and stared at us! so freaky!!!!!

lol cute sji guys make me smile. go figure. heh.

w00ts i finished all my work! now i feel so hardworking. xD

i really give up. there's no more fight in me to continue this battle. i give up.

i hate you!

2006-01-15T16:46:00.000+08:00

played for kindergarten worship today. nicole and nadin are so cute!!!!! and it was pretty good, considering poor sam and shepherd sylvia were both sick.

arghpftrawrhumphIHATEYOU!

went for sermon. it was pretty good, except i fell asleep once. i think i was too tired lah. been running on overdrive since school started or something. it's all that stress and work.

speaking of work, i have a bloody pile of work to do but i'm not doing it because i'm so irresponsible and inconsiderate. so there.

something seems... weird. the more i think of it, the weirder it gets. maybe it's just my imagination.

work work and more work. there's rs, piano (!!!!!), maths, commonwealth outline, and a whole lot of others.

to the heartheat: cute sji guys make me smile!

and that was random. tomorrow's a monday. oh yeah speaking of mondays. this morning i woke up at 5.45am and panicked, thinking that it was monday. it wasn't until i had finished brushing my teeth that i realised today's only SUNDAY. and i was thinking that i slept a whole day away. >.< this must be a product of stress. obsessive compulsive.

oh cool this post is quite long. but it's random. should i continue to be random? yes i should.

rs sucks. it really does. our rs group email is we_will_survive_rs. can you believe it. and our mentor is down with some infection so we can start preparing to do rs in rjc.

i wanna watch geisha!!!!! it comes out this thursday! after our rjc bio talk! WHEE!!!!!

i hate you. and i hate myself for hating you.

i just don't feel like it

2006-01-14T20:24:00.000+08:00

school. sigh. but nevermind.

i still can't believe how pathetic i am. but nevermind.

he's screwing with my brain. but nevermind.

i'm going to fail my exams. but nevermind.

so it all boils down to nevermind. why? because i don't really care.

this is so weird.

ok anyway i haven't been blogging so basically these past few days have been spent ~~trying to~~ study(ing), whining, complaining, slacking, going crazy and sleeping. so far i haven't fallen asleep in any class yet ~~even though i so very nearly did in pang's. not my fault she's so boring right~~. congratulate me.

i shall be hardworking. i shall not think of him. i shall not be distracted.

played for ywav worship today. yes i screwed up. playing the synth is just so weird. i think i prefer piano, not that i can play it very well, but i think at least i sound coherent. with the synth i'm just crashing notes and chords whenever i feel like it, or rather, when my fingers twitch towards the keys. tomorrow playing for kindergarten worship, monday piano lesson. ugh.

yeah i'm such a self-centred piece of crap right. ~~so forgive me~~.

this post is so typical.

buried in homework!

2006-01-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

UGH I'M BURIED IN HOMEWORK! -dies. and the super pathetic mission avoidment lasted 3 pathetic days before being thwarted by the pathetic timing of a certain pathetic individual!!!!! ugh i hate that word.

oh wells the gathering thing at tim's house was fun. we played badminton and table tennis. and AHEMAHEMAHEMcoughcoughcoughHINTHINTHINT. nvm. >.<

but, you gotta admit, it IS rather suspicious. stop screwing with my brain you idiot! ugh.

i feel the need to emo-blog, as mel so charmingly refers to the usual hormonal teenager behavious. but i don't have the time. i'm buried in homework, and i'm sleepy. good night everyone.

mission avoidment!

2006-01-09T16:15:00.000+08:00

mission avoidment! yay. can't say much about it but anyway i hope it works. xD

guess what? i got into A strand maths! w00ts! ok come to think of it it's pretty stressful. but oh wells it'll be fun. i hope.

today is a rainy monday. as predicted. lessons weren't that bad though. had spot check in the morning but i didn't get booked cause the prefect was quite nice. heh. and i was pulling my belt from the back while she was checking. xD but i got warned for my fringe. tsk.

we had triple science, maths and chi today! ugh. quite brain-sizzling. but we survived! by the last block we were going crazy and mel and i were singing 'i am cow, hear me moo, i weigh twice as much as you. and i look good on the barbecue!' we also came up with a bimbo version of the crazy worm thing. xD crazy lessons are good.

tomorrow i'm going out shopping with heartheart again! heh pastamania. xD and after that bbq at tim's house, which i don't know whether i'm going for cause my mum's so unpredictable. but oh wells. tomorrow is a holiday! xD

anyone wanna watch geisha after it comes out?

rain, rain, go away

2006-01-08T14:43:00.000+08:00

it's raining again. been raining like there's no tomorrow these few days. ok so that was the wrong expression to use. tomorrow's gonna be a rainy monday. rainy days and mondays always get me down. oh wells.

worship today was er... interesting. first service the synthesizer died on us. just before it was going to start. actually it wasn't really the synthesizer's fault. the powerpoint died. so i joined shepherd sylvia and sam for worship. xD the kids are so cute! xD heh then second service we moved to the other nursery where we had only 2 people. but surprisingly they were louder than the entire first service class. >.<

went for sermon after debrief. came home with parents. that's about it.

tomorrow school starts. oh yeah excons there's a bbq at tim's house on tue! and that means tue morning + afternoon will be spent with rs, homework and more work. tsk. the first 2 weeks of school rocks. after that will be chi new year! muahaha.

it still feels like the holidays.

i finished all my homework!

2006-01-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

lol. actually i didn't. there's still commonwealth essay. but it's due 6th feb. so i can't really be bothered to do. heh. i'm so proud of myself! but this passion for homework (yeah right) won't last long, i predict. by the end of jan i'll probably be finding excuses ~~as usual~~ not to do work.

today we had ywav. no wait before that we opened our covenants written at the beginning of sec 3. quite funny, some of them. after that we went for ywav. we're going to have combined bible studies with fisherx! for the first 3 months anyway. and ywav is gonna have a whole new timetable. which is super confusing but i guess it'll be ok, since ywav leaders always have brilliant planning skills. i'm not being sarcarstic ok. it's true!

we did this commitment prayer thing which we wrote on pieces of wood then we nailed onto this big wooden board. the idea's super cool. i think the new pastor's very nice. heh. but still i don't wanna combine with fisherx!!!!! don't get me wrong now, they're nice people. it's just that i'm used to having bible study as a cia. sigh.

tomorrow i'm playing for kindergarten worship! actually i'm playing for them for a whole month. >.< how oh how did i get landed with this?! ok nvm God loves a cheerful giver. xD i shall serve cheerfully! xD besides, they're so cute. heh. and i'm in ywav worship team 2! lol.

ok now i'm tired. maybe i shall go find a new picture for my blog. maybe.

teenage infatuations!

2006-01-06T23:06:00.000+08:00

just read mel's blog and now i feel like blogging about our conversation today. mel and i went to cine pastamania again for lunch today (cause i'm so boring yes whatever) and we spent the whole time there talking about youknowwhat. sigh. seriously. sometimes i hate being a teenager. what's with already struggling with an identity crisis and then something like that smacks you right in the face. teenage infatuations...

so anyway we talked and analysed (actually mel did most of the analysing since i'm so hopelessly dense and transparent >.<). and for some weird reason random memories kept on popping into my mind. actually not so random since everything even remotely related to youknowwho is stored in the infinite library of anyi's screwed up brain under a folder called 'DELETE IMMEDIATELY OR ELSE YOU'RE AN IDIOT'. nice huh.

did einstein have these problems? i don't think so!

nvm that was random. >.<

it's a friday!

2006-01-06T21:04:00.000+08:00

yay today's the last day of the first week of school! xD heh we had lessons, as usual. and a boring assembly. and rs. -dies. rs must be the worst subject on earth. and then philo. yay we got back our journals from last year! heh and he gave me a proficient/excellent. man do i love philo. xD

i'm buried in homework. mostly rs, i must admit. but oh wells i shall do it tomorrow! except erm i don't have any time! there's the appreciation lunch for the musical at 12pm, then cia starts at 215 cause we're gonna open our commitments that we wrote sometime last year (i think). so tomorrow will be busy.

ugh. now i'm off to type out rs minutes. sigh.

happy birthday 401!

2006-01-04T20:43:00.000+08:00

yay today is 401's birthday!

happy birthday to us,
happy birthday to us.
happy birthday to four-oh-oneeeeeeeeeee
happy birthday to us!

yay! i feel happy. er somewhat. nvm. and erm sigh. ok i sound a little crazy.

i thought love was only true in fairytales.

randomness again. >.<

sad stuff

2006-01-03T20:39:00.000+08:00

i just saw something that made me wanna cry!!!!! why oh why.

talked a bit with yq about it yesterday. and he said i need a wake up call from him. to get over it lah. i guess he's right. but it's so freaky! it's like self-inflicting pain just to get over another kind of pain.

have you ever gotten the feeling that someone up there is playing with you? screwing with your brain? when you want something to happen, it doesn't. when you're crossing your fingers that it doesn't, it happens. it's so weird. i know God's trying to teach me something, but i just can't seem to figure it out. enlighten me, someone, please?

i'm being incoherent. again. ignore me, please.

first day as a sec 4!

2006-01-03T17:10:00.000+08:00

i officially survived my first day as a sec 4! congratulate me! xD heh actually today no lessons, so i guess we'll see on thursday. xD

oh did i mention we got pang AGAIN for geog? i'm like mourning for my geog results! crap man, just when we thought she wasn't teaching sec 4. UGH. she sucks! and poor heartheart's rs mentor is our eng teacher! sigh. our science teachers look pretty ok, except maybe for mr yang. looks a bit toot. >.< and we got ahzahar (dunno how to spell that) for ss! apparently he's quite cute, according to mel. xD

sigh. the new academic year begins. but it's ok. WE WILL SURVIVE! everybody say with me: WE WILL SURVIVE ANOTHER YEAR OF HORRIBLY TORTUROUS SCHOOL YEAR! WE WILL SURVIVE RP (or o levels, for those ~~poor~~ lucky dudes not taking rp)!

ah i feel better. free speech is good.

crap. did i just say that?

i'm back!

2006-01-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

sorry this blog has been so dead. let's see. the past few days have been spent with performances, camp and i just returned from malaysia today. a pretty fruitful holiday, though not very relaxing. but i did go out with heartheart quite a bit. xD

school's starting soon. happy new year to everyone.

my plan for 2006:
- learn ballet (stop laughing you toots out there)
- improve french
- hit my irritatingly elusive 3.5 (actually my target's 3.6, but nevermind)
- serve in ywav worship
- improve piano
- get over it

that sounds pretty good doesn't it? xD heh whether i'll achieve it is another matter. but nevermind one can always dream.

i'm anything but ordinary.

shopping and a 38.5 degree fever!

2005-12-19T18:57:00.000+08:00

went shopping with heartheart today! i spent like $110 on 25 people! -crys i'm so broke! so now everyone run out now and buy anyi a nice christmas present, because she ~~most probably~~ got one for you!

sigh. but oh wells i'm quite proud of myself. it boils down to about $4.50 per person. but STILL, i'm so broke! and i owe heartheart $54. :'( but she's broke too. poor darling. hear that? buy her a present too! xD

just took my temperature and i have a 38.5 degree fever! that's the highest i've gotten this, year, i think. whine!

and so, once again, GET ME A PRESENT.

boo hoo my heart still bleeds.

half dead ankles and half dead me

2005-12-18T22:07:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry if this blog is dead. i'm always too tired to blog after a day of stuff. but keep the tags coming will you? heh add some life to the blog. and just to entertain you, i shall do a quiz koped from heartheart.

THE 100 QUESTION QUIZ

1. Kissed your cousin?
- yeah. my baby cousin on the cheek. xD

2. Ran away?
- from home? nah i don't do such dumb stuff.

3. Pictured your crush naked?
- er no. seriously i'm very innocent ok. heh.

4. Skipped school?
- no, even though i'd love to skip some useless days to go out, but NOOO the parents won't allow, even if i'm down with a freakingly high fever. ):

5. Broken someone's heart?
-i think so.

6. Been in love?
- yeah Jesus. (:

7. Cried when someone died?
- yup duh. you expect me to laugh when someone dies?

8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have?
- yeah.

9. Broken a bone?
- nope. at least i don't think so. >.<

10. Done something embarrassing?
- OH YES. embarrassment is my middle name.

11. Done a drug?
- nah.

12. Cried in school?
- yup. what's with all that stress and bitching going on, yeah.

WHICH IS BETTER...

13. Coke or Pepsi?
- you want me to go through pang's theory? anything also can lah.

14. Sprite or 7UP?
- don't really like either.

15.Flowers or Candy?
- yes please.

16. Scruff or Clean shaved?
- clean shaved. me no like cavemen. >.<

17. Blondes or Brunettes?
- brunettes. cause they're smarter (theoretically)

18. Too Fat or Too Skinny?
- i prefer normal sized please.

19. Tall or Short?
- tall. but not some 2m giant.

20. Pants or Shorts?
- anything.

22. Night or Day?
- anything. no preference.

23. What do you notice first?
- in people? eyes. and smile! xD

24. Last person you slow danced with?
- er i can't really remember.

25. Worst question to ask?
- 'how have you been?' seriously that's the most pointless question ever.

THE LAST TIME YOU...

26. Showered:
- last night

27. Stepped outside:
- today?

28. Had Sex:
- NEVER. not until i'm married. xD

STUFF...

30. Your Good Luck Charm:
- myself loh.

31. Person You Dislike Most:
- er none really.

32. Best Thing That Has Happened:
- lots. or none. depends on how you look at it. xD

33. On your desk:
- a box of most-eaten ferrero rocher, my phone, the com, a cup, a cheque, a bracelet that melody gave to me for christmas (so sweet right?) and lots of useless stuff.

34. Picture on your desktop:
- plain blue.

FAVORITES...

35. Color:
- i like all colours. except for a few weird exceptions like ochre, vermillion and most 'neutral colours'. i don't know why but i just hate them.

36. Movie:
- too many to count.

37. Artist:
- don't really have favorites.

38. Cars:
- not really a car fan. maybe a brilliant blue or lavender or hotpink one. maybe.

39. Ice Cream:
- ew i hate ice cream.

40. Season:
- spring and autumn. so pretty.

41. Breakfast Food:
- soup and dumplings. actually anything as long as it's not sickening.

WHO...

42. Makes you laugh the most:
- currently, caleb tops my list. xD

43. Makes you smile:
- that's for me to know and you to observe. xD

44. Can make you feel better no matter what:
- er no one.

45. Has A Crush On You:
- no one, i think.

46. Do You Have A Crush On:
- no one, i'm trying to think.

47. Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys?:
- we're all equal lah.

48. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them:
- funny feeling? what's that supposed to mean?

DO YOU EVER...

49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night:
- no. i usually fall asleep.

50. Save MSN conversations:
- it's automatic.

51. Save E-mails:
- yeah. the meaningful ones.

52. Forward secret E-mails:
- no. for what?

53. Wish you were someone else:
- yeah, but only for a day or two. i like who i am. (:

54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex:
- yeah. especially when i'm pmsing.

55. Wear perfume:
- nope.

56. Kiss:
- kiss who?

57. Cuddle:
- cuddle? cuddle who?

58. Go online for longer than eight hours a time:
- nah my com will explode. it's too old to take the strain. xD

HAVE YOU EVER...

59. Fallen for your best friend?:
- no. that's just plain wrong.

60. Made out with JUST a friend?:
- are you nuts? duh no.

61. Kissed two people in the same day?:
- er no. i'm not really a big fan of kissing.

62. Had sex with two different people in the same day?:
- are you horny or something? no.

63. Been rejected?:
- hm... define rejected. actually no. xD

64. Been in love?:
- with who? my parents?

65. Been in lust?:
- sadly, yes.

66. Used someone?:
- yeah. but what they don't know won't hurt them right?

67. Been used?:
- yeah.

68. Cheated on someone?:
- no.

69. Been cheated on?:
- ?! no.

70. Been kissed?:
- yeah.

71. Done something you regret?
- hm... i guess when it all boils down everything that happens is a step towards the future, so no. (dammit i sound like a miss universe contestant or something.)

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...

72. You touched?:
- er my mum?

73. You talked to?
- my mum or dad, can't remember.

74. You hugged?:
- yanling. when we met her at esplanade. xD

75. You instant messaged?:
- ah wait let me check. sam khoo. regarding the musical.

76. You kissed?:
- i told you i'm not a big fan of kisses. but i guess it'd be bell, when she forced me to. xD but that was a long time ago.

77. You yelled at:
- my parents i guess. they're the only people i yell at anyway. >.<

78. You thought about?:
- er i'm not telling.

79. Who text messaged you?:
- let me check my inbox. kaixiang. regarding the musical also.

80. Who broke your heart?:
- my heart's unbreakable. xD yeah right.

DO YOU...

82. Color your hair?
- nope. but i have natural light brown highlights from swimming. does that count?

83. Have tattoos?:
- no. ouch.

84. Have piercings?:
- yeah. two. no, one and a half, technically. one of them's half closed. >.< lousy shop.

85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend:
- nope.

86. Own a webcam?:
- no. i think.

87. Own a thong?:
- what's that?

88. Ever get off the computer?:
- yes duh especially when my parents start to scream and yell. >.<

89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?:
- that's my next goal after francais! xD

90. Habla espanol?:
- and that comes after german.

91. Quack?:
- oooh i just ate duck for dinner! xD

HAVE YOU/ DO YOU/ ARE YOU...

92. Stolen anything?:
- no. i don't think so.

93. Smoke?:
- no. that's gross.

94. Schizophrenic:
- i suspect so.

95. Obsessive?:
- quite, depending on the subject.

96. Compulsive?:
- sometimes.

97. Obsessive compulsive?:
- i hope not.

98. Panic?:
- yeah. especially during pt or exam period.

99. Anxiety?:
- seldom.

100. Depressed?:
- yes when i'm mood-swinging.

ah. i'm done. hope you have fun reading it! xD

seoul garden!

2005-12-12T20:10:00.000+08:00

w00ts had excons outing today at seoul garden! and abel came as well. so we all ate and laughed and destroyed the hot plate and laughed some more and acted crazy. actually it didn't require much acting. anyway it was really really really fun. and pretty cheap too. well, considering it's seoul garden. xD

after that we went to walk around and later everyone left except melody vio and me. so we walked around some more and melody and i bought lycra tops! hers black, mine pink. xD w00ts her cousin works there so we got 30% off! so cool right!

tomorrow there's camp drama rehearsal, dance and french lesson. sigh. tired! and i'm pretty sick of ice cube. sit there and watch them get drunk. >.<

ugh

2005-12-11T19:59:00.000+08:00

yeah i know i haven't been blogging. the blog is practically dead. sigh. there just isn't enough time to juggle dance, drama, another drama, piano, homework and blogging. oh wells. the blog will be probably in hibernation till next year starts, or when i have time to blog, whichever comes first. so i apologize to my fans (which probably are non-existent). xD

crack bump ouch

2005-12-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

my whole body aches from head to toe. ok maybe not head. but definitely toe. OUCH. dance is the most torturous thing on earth. 4 hours today some more.

after dance i met heartheart for lunch and a movie and i was half an hour late. >.< oops heh sorry! then we walked around blah blah blah. i'm just too tired to blog. anyway the bottomline is: dance is tiring.

stupid blogspot and tagboard

2005-12-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

argh first blogspot screwed up on me, then tag-board. argh. what is this. humph. stupid.

anyway i stoned the whole day at home. -applause

eh clap leh.

ok fine i'm being lame. but i'm bored. and i just realised that tv's showing some really great movies! xD watched the bodyguard today. so touching and sad! nearly cried towards the end. and whitney houston has a fantastic voice! heh.

okies tomorrow dance practice and then meeting the HEARTHEART (accidentally called her 'sweetsweet' in an sms and she nearly murdered me) for aeonflux! heh bet you're jealous. muahaha. i wanna watch P&P when it comes out too! any takers? xD

syfc christmas airways concerts! schedule will be up as soon as i get my hands on a copy (lost mine, you see). invite your non-christian friends k? it's gonna be FUN!

w00ts i thought about him approximately 3456790987532134578787654 times today. applaud my mental strength and determination please.

let's see.

2005-12-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

ok let's see. sat. lsl aquatics party in the morning! went pretty well and i guess everyone enjoyed themselves. which is good! xD

splat graduation! xD heh i'm so proud of my mentees and all the track 2 people who passed the test! xD and er someone was there. nvm i shall not think about it! lol ok mmm looked super hot! right char? xD heh and it was fun! we taught pam some of the dance steps too! yup.

sunday went to church combined service and pastor kenny preached! super good sermon! xD abel was there too. his hair looks uber weird. >.< like a bird's nest or something. yay i miss the fam family! after service went shopping with char's family and auntie kinneng (how do you spell it?) bought me a lycra top for christmas! so super sweet right! heh thankews lots! oh wait she won't read my blog. oh wells char help me thank her. xD

today i woke up at 1pm after a 14-hour long sleep! must be cause previous few days too tired. so refreshing to finally sleep well! went for drama rehearsal and we met the rest of the cast! muahaha. such cute people. and i can remember their names! i think. daryl grace xiaohui and er... (dammit what's that guy's name?) i can't remember lah! nvm i got most of that correct.

i can't stop thinking of mmm. and in case you haven't realised, the only reason why i think of mmm is because of him. argh.